Never Going*

Never going back to school
Remember when we'd act like fools
Now they say I've grown up in my own way
But I just wanna chill in the old days
I think that I've made a mistake
My tongue will turn to mush
And my brain will decay
Every single day's just another day
I'm spinning circles in every way

Like hello
You can call me H
You've probably never heard of me
Cause I stay in my room 'till late
I felt this way since young
They were really thinking 'bout death
I put in mad work for this music
But it don't make no sense
I remember things from the past
Sometimes I play with it
Playing kino, wearing chinos
Thinking I'd always be this kid
Then I found the edge
And I fell off the cliff
They found me but I lost myself
I wish you knew what I did

Never going back to school
Remember when we'd act like fools
Now they say I've grown up in my own way
But I just wanna chill in the old days
I think that I've made a mistake
My tongue will turn to mush
And my brain will decay
Every single day's just another day
I'm spinning circles in every way

If I never make it this verse worth none
Man that hurts and the spotlights on me I feel so lonely
A job and a L plate
And bulls on parade while I hide in the shade of my hood
In that room that I hate cause I waste all my time
When I should be writing lines of the fire that won't stop like
I know I'm in my head too much
Turn my legs to dust
I'd never leave your arms
You weren't my crush now I feel crushed
I'm sorry

You go through trauma and write to it
Post that up on a site for it
Then the music brings you hope
Some passion for the future
Its the only thing you know
Its the only thing you trust
But now your therapy is your energy
If you ever wanna get paid

Can't lay in bed, makes it worse
Can't find my place on this earth

Times changing, living life like its chopped and screwed
It's all slowed
I'm stuck in the studio with students
Thinking how we're gonna make it through this
I got a motive tonight, I'm in my bedroom watching movies
And I'm staring at these photos
I know the film was flammable but these will images last now
You send me one text and I'm feeling on my arse now
I used to lie on the floor looking for all the answers
Same time I'd ride my bike from the garage to the path
And you don't know the feeling when you know you've lost your friends
Everything ends but we didn't think that then
We used to be mad men, now I'm alone, mad max
But the desert is my ends and all my friends hate the sand
They don't exist
I know my presence is a 10, I just survive and I exist still
My people get their wish still even if I don't feel complete still
Living out the life i used to dream about it's not enough