Feud

I might lose it I might just
I dont know why I confuse it these vices
I think I always felt like I was second best
Unimportant or less worthy for affection when
Felt like I was tossed around when I was younger
Had her faults but yo i always loved my mother
Grew older and the feelings I expressed for some
Were met with sympathy but they were never matched with love
So I think I seek approval now
I never learned to be a man who was true or proud
That's a whole lotta shit I cant Google how
And I had some bad influences I grew up around
I wont pass it off i guess I'm weak and I give in
I don't vent nothing I'm just keepin it within
Never learned how to feel or to talk about
Love so I'd rather not and just blot it out
Jot it down, it saves me from darker routes
But really wanna self destruct all around
And im callin out for help loud but hear not a sound
Self esteem ain't something grabbed from the lost and found
I wish it was tho bad decisions and ima do em in the utmost
I just hope and pray that I can keep a steady drug flow
Uh oh unfold blood go dumb cold stunt growth gone

You ain't never been a weak kid, stop thinkin
Get outside your head you've got shit to believe in
You working hard to catch these dreams and you seize them
Your pity party just gon stop you from achieving
You preachin some positivity it's time to live it
Start following your own advice that you are always givin
Don't give in to your weaknesses cuz you can change the system
Of the thoughts that's in your head boy start believing what you spittin

Nah it ain't like that, not like I don't fight back
But sometimes my mind is too blind for the right track
All the bullshit got me tryin to rewrite facts
Every wrong doing, think about em in my night cap
Damn it's to the point I lay awake at night
Images in my head i cant take the sight
Feelin like I'm losing grip of everything in life
My girl, music and my fam all fadin right
Before my eyes and I don't know how to hold em still
Think it might be easier to just dome the steel
At least then, right then, yo the moments real
And finally might kill off this lonely feel
That I get and I dont know why It come
Russian roulette, full clip, try my luck
All the tears that I've dropped all drying up
When will I ever feel like I'm enough when am I enough

Enough for what bro, who are you competin with
Therapy and art, gotta keep releasing it
Time to reap what you sow and seeded
Follow your heart and start leading

What if my art forces everyone away that I hold close
What if we winding up together at some forked roads

Refocus your mind on what you control
Cant you see the sunshine man its beautiful

Dug my own hole made my bed up in the pit
Deconstruct it make a ladder climb it you set
Ion really think it's easy as you sayin
You ain't gonna know until you try and quit playin

Dont you have a hand that could help you out
Open your eyes grab the hands thatll help you out

Shits mad tough, gotta get back up
Got the world on my back help me lift that up, yeah
Shits mad tough, gotta get back up
Got the world on my back help me lift that up, yeah
Shits mad tough, gotta get back up
Got the world on my back help me lift that up, yeah
Shits mad tough, gotta get back up
Got the world on my back help me lift that up, yeah
Gotta Just keep climbin
Just keep climbin yeah
Just keep climbin
Boy you flyin yeah
Just keep climbin
Just keep climbin yeah
Yeah yeah



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Writer(s): Daniel Ivy
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