All In My Head

Listen, You were the beat inside my heart the spring that I used to
step, the stars that lit up the sky and guided me to where I'm at,
you made the nights great, and so I settled with the nights later,
liked days too, everything that became safer, was comfort I,
indulged in something I, thought would be the love of my life,
till it burnt like it's crate paper, my,
momma told me they'd be days this,
but a life like this is something I just didn't expect,
so I sit and I get, to the point where I fill up a sketch pad and
lead in the pencil is snapped dead and my fingers are black,
thought I was off the market gimme that ring want it back,
I ring and it text but the ringing is never accepted and I'm confused
I know that we had to dos but I didn't think you'd ghost me like
nessa in dead pool 2, eyes open,
and I'm hoping it is true that you're really a
relationship and not something I dreamed into.
life

I guess that times change and today, mind states safe in a way,
but I stay with the Brain pattern that we could be great,
some people dream of having money and fancy home,
and all I dream of is to see you when my eyes is closed,
darkness poses in and my heart is thrown in to over drive,
you're beautiful as California costal ride,
you're beautiful as a marriage of both Megan and Harry and Mike and
Rachel reality is you over shine,
this toast I write to those who hoped for the chosen bride only to be
blown over when scoping the roads all day and night,
to find out she doesn't exist, she's all inside your head,
and it's dangerous to suggest that she could of been perfect,
she could of seen the serpent ways of the men and fully embraced it
for what it is on the daily she been perfect,
but is it worth it to have it and not work for it only
to be alerted to things you didn't observe at the start