Anxiety Dreams

My head be getting heavier with every thought
I thought I knew it all but turns out it was just a flaw
My mind be going racing
Erasing all of these thoughts
I just want a small refresher but pressure is all I got

And I won't lie I'm scared
About this world I'm living in
It's like a siamese twin to your world
But my world's within
Imagine seeing death come towards you with a big ass grin
That's what I see all day but my body goes deep with him

And I won't lie I'm scared
Bout the shit he boutta do
He said I did it all too good
And now I lost all my sainthood
I just wanna say what's up to my family one last time
But he called my stupid and looked at me and cried and said

I won't lie I'm scared
'Bout the man that's up above
He told me you're still way too young
And your life hasn't yet begun
I'm the one that fucked it up and I can't tell you why or what's up
I just thought that you were done
And then god took me up and said

I won't lie I'm scared
'Cause your family is dying
Your grandma heard the news and she just wanted to stop trying
Your ma and pa are fighting
They just yelling out and prying
And they don't know who to blame
And that's when I look out the frame and

Oh my god I'm scared
'Cause my sister got a knife
She about to end her life and look for me in afterlife
And I yell out that It's not worth it
Didn't mean to start this shit
But she about to slit her wrist
I turn around and I insist

Holy god I'm scared
Please don't do this shit to me
Take me back and let me free and I swear I will leave nikki
And I will move on forward to the light
Go make the most out of my time
Go plead forgiveness for my crimes
And go forgive who made me die