Introverted

Introverted
Outside inverted
Shut in means never hurting
Laziness stops me from working
Mentally drained no doubt
Absorbed by going out
People make it seem paramount
Only enough times for 2 fingers To count
But I've started taking leaps and bounds
Sentence structure makes me a Clown
Pronunciation, sentences, ask me How
I manage to mess up
And even add words I don't Mean to use
What

I don't understand why my Feelings are concealed
Social interaction never does Appeal
I never take action
Afraid of dissatisfaction
Words are my allergic reaction
I forgot how to use this Contraption
My mind
Using it I wouldn't mind
But give me some time
If you could be so kind
I wouldn't be so blind
But I guess in hind sight
I'm half right
And half white
I don't prefer the limelight
Confident but nervous
Call in the whole circus
Watching how I'm wording
I don't wanna be disturbing
So I'll kept to myself
No I don't need any help
Not hungry
Or want anything else
I'll never ask for much
Undecided dinner shrugs
Sleep like I haven't had enough
Sleepy dream waves for brunch
Bad habits of binge watching
A whole season
My thing
Never out the room
Unseen

I don't bring much to the table
A label, a cable, to enable
Possible
Interaction
Never lasting
I scare away any type of company
Resting anger on my face Apparently
I need some clarification
Some type of relaxation
Games to play on my PlayStation
To let out my frustration
It's quite the sensation
To be giving support
I don't think about anything Anymore
Ship left at doc no rope to keep Port
I'm a mess but I have a system of Sorts
Tangled knotted cords
Messy hair puff galore
Disassociated from society
A Sociopath living inside of me
Unsure of what I wanna be
Anything is a possibility
Avoid all types of confrontation
Being inside helps with my Savings
If I'm scared to interact who am I blaming

I just hope I'm not the one to Execute
Small on the inside minuet
Need little self esteem boost
And speak with no excuse
A mid evil mindset
A chaotic fool
Magician hat
Same pair of shoes
Drawing dude
That's me the stuttering bufoon
I hope I grow sometime soon
Outta this shell
Wishing you well
Definitely not verbally well
Rather you can spiritually tell
I don't speak so clear when near
I mummer And stumble but in my head it goes so swell
I apologize for my disappearance
There was connection interference
I also saw a sale, it's on Clarence
Get a hoodie and wear it
Without one I couldn't bear it
Really limited when it comes to Dialogue
I zone out at times can be Completely lost
Conversation doesn't really last Long
I wanted it to be prolonged
A beautiful beginning of a Prologue

This chaotic mind going full Throttle
A philosopher like Aristotle
I think that's quite thoughtful
If I could be I would be
But I shouldn't be
Basically
So Blatantly
Probable a possibility based on My soliloquy
Comfortable only at home
Even better when alone
It feels like I'm the king to my Own throne
But when the mic on I'm in Chaos mode
Regardless of where I am or Where I stand
I'm still the same ole introverted
Chaos intro to my version
Chaotic mind