Faking It

I remember your expression when I first told you I loved you
And I still recall your one obsession with that one way I would touch you
But I've got a small confession, and it might be difficult to take
It was all just fake
Every love note, every phone call, it was just a way to keep it going
And I built a massive ten foot stone wall between the two of us without you knowing
'Cause I told myself I won't fall for you and I never broke that pact
It was all an act

Whoa, It's always satisfying
Whoa, revealing that I'm lying
You never had my heart, so there ain't no way you're breaking it
Sorry babe this whole time I was faking it

I enjoyed your adoration and how you nearly broke your back to please me
But honestly it reeked of desperation and being with you almost made me queasy
But I kept the fabrication going strong until the very end
It was just pretend
Every time you gave me kisses I would picture them as someone else's
And I think it would be more delicious if you put your money where your mouth is
You were never once suspicious, but I had a secret up my sleeve
It was make believe

You ask me how could I be so deceitful
You say my messed up mind is gross and evil
Well say what you want, 'cause your anger is my fuel
Who hurt me bad enough to make me callous?
What kind of person is so full of malice?
Well love can be fun but it's more fun being cruel
It was all a masquerade, an elaborate charade
So I think it's time for us to say goodbye
If you wanna see how far above your head I am
Just look up in the sky