Prologue

This the who
This the what
This is what we been waiting for
ZJ Mission
Oh this is what y'all been waiting for
Covered under Psalm 91
You know how long it's been
A year ago and we back at it again
Here we go
Back at it
Just starting
Y'all don't even know
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I'm back at it (Back)
Holding on to my purpose like a bag at it (Back)
Taking shots at my pride like I'm mad at it (Shots, shots)
And I been carrying the cross with me everywhere I go like my back tatted
But I'm never back tracking (Nah)
Pressing on towards the goal like a fast basket
Got the full armor of God
So you know I'm hard to break like a bad habit
But if you wanna try have at it
God gives me everything I need with a full supply
I don't look like much but don't fool your eyes
My life ain't defined by their foolish lies
I got Christ inside so I'ma do this right (Christ inside)
I'm like yuh, fire in my heart I can't keep it subtle (Nah)
Dying daily to myself tryna keep it humble (What)
Spirit and my flesh at war
Like I'm out in the middle of a storm you can see the struggle (Woop,woop, woop)
It's all night, but I ain't going boat to boat (Splash)
Heart full of faith when I approach the throne
My savior took nails in his hands and feet
So if the devil try me we're going toe to toe (Toe to toe)
I'm like whoa, But they don't even get that boy (Boy)
They ain't even with that boy (Boy)
They just wanna get cash boy (Boy)
I ain't out here tryna make a milli man I'm tryna make an impact boy (Boy)
And Lord knows they need it
Fighting to survive they just need one reason
The first thing I had to learn to fight my demons
Is they ain't my demons, they belong to the devil
He already been defeated, I just call on Jesus (Jesus)
Walking on the devil in my size 12 sneakers
But I been getting tired after all these seasons (Yuh)
Praying that my enemies don't find my weakness (Woo)

Cuz they been out here tryna bring me down
Fighting with me tryna bring me down (Hey)
The devil always tryna bring me down (Down)
I pray I never let 'em bring me down

It's been a while since you checked me
I'll pick up right where you left me (Aye)
I've been so busy my journal is empty
It's been a while since I last made an entry
I don't know where I should start
There's so much in my heart
From the future and all of these memories
Thoughts of the past that still weigh on me heavy
I've still got letters and cards that she sent me (Cards that you sent me)
Grateful to God He's been good and He blessed me
Could've been lost long ago but He kept me (Whoa)
God on my side I been keeping it steady
Looking ahead to my future I'm ready (I'm ready)
Smile on my face people say I'm too friendly
But still I got people I know don't respect me
They think I'm walking in err, they reject me
But it takes a whole lot than that to offend me (Yeah)
I can't be focused on public opinion
Cuz bitterness held in the dark will turn deadly (Yeah)
Satan will try to cause strife if you let him
Some of us need to go straight to repentance
She on the side tryna talk to me sexy
But I killed my pride so it can't even tempt me
I'm taking shots out of every direction
But I've got the armor of God I'm protected, yeah (Straight)
At least that's what I tell myself
Scared to the play the hand that I dealt myself
Tryna play it cool like a fool
But how am I supposed to help y'all if I can't even help myself
But they don't even think I need helping
Zach got it all together even got an album that he's selling
Prolly be on Sway maybe Ellen
But there's a whole part of the story I don't tell 'em
They don't know the nights that I cried in my bed
Eyes bloodshot and my face turning red
Dealing with abuse from the words that were said
Suicidal thoughts float around in my head
Thought about a fight, thought about a murder (Thought about a fight)
Pulling out a knife or the water from the burner
Told myself I'd never let 'em see me cry again
I'm not a quick thinker but I am a quick learner
Every time they told me I'd never be nothing (Every time)
Said I didn't care truth be told I was bluffing (Fake)
Every time they told me that I'm stupid and I'm dumber
Every time they said all I do is cause trouble (Yeah)
Overtime I started to believe that (Aye)
Out of place tryna get my self esteem back (Woo)
So bad that I fell for a honey
When I should've turned and run
Instead I fell into the bee trap (Yeah)
I cut it off, but the scars you can see that
Lost touch like a double amputee's back
Really I ain't even trying to redeem that
If I'm honest I just wanna get me back (Get me back)

Cuz they been out here tryna bring me down (Down)
Fighting with me tryna bring me down (Down)
The devil always tryna bring me down (Down)
I'm fighting not to let em bring me down

Yeah yeah. Don't bring me down. No. Yeah