Trust (feat. Zeara) [Edit]

Hello? I've been trying to reach you for days now
I've been worried sick
Give me a call when you can
Bye

Yeah, I mean
You don't even know what goes on inside my head
Like, if only you knew

Why's it always feel like
I just gotta stand and fight
All the demons in my
Head tryna take my light
My heart grows tired
Constantly in fight or flight
And if I cannot survive
You'll be there to help me, right?
Wrong
I've been tired
Of always trying to light this fire
In my heart
The same one that's been split apart
By these people lighting sparks
Claiming they're my friend
But knowing in the end
They won't ever be there
Cuz they never really cared
So, I'm simply insecure
And I cannot find the cure
Say you wanna stay here
Well, you better be sure

Love me, hate me, (Hate me)
I can't fake me (Nah)
I can only (I can only)
Rearrange me (Yeah, yeah)
Would you love me (Would you love me)
If I showed you (Whatcha wanna see?)
Who I am and all I can do?
What can I do?
I can show you all the times that I fell down (I fell down)
I can show you all the beauty that I found (That I found)
Underground
Where I belong
Not here writing, fighting, trying
My hardest to become strong (Yeah, yeah)
I just need some help to fix it
Or to end it all

And why's it always feel like
I always gotta change my mind? (Yeah)
Just to please you guys (Yeah, yeah)
If I don't then I'm right (Right?)
Back where I started
Feeling broken-hearted
Wonder if I'm a target
Wonder if I give up will they miss me, or will I be just another name on that list of the dearly departed
So should I go bottoms up (Nah)
With the pills or find a (Yeah)
Purpose for my life
A way to stay alive (Yeah)
Maybe I don't need it
Started to believe that
I could never be the one who falls to all his demons
Reasons
For survival
On a high note
I know
I won't

Love me, hate me, (Hate me)
I can't fake me (Nah)
I can only (I can only)
Rearrange me (Yeah, yeah)
Would you love me (Would you love me)
If I showed you (Whatcha wanna see?)
Who I am and all I can do?
What can I do?
I can show you all the times that I fell down (I fell down)
I can show you all the beauty that I found (That I found)
Underground
Where I belong
Not here writing, fighting, trying
My hardest to become strong
I just need some help to fix it
Or to end it all

Sorry I've been distant
Your care was always instant (Yeah)
Never knew a love so bold
I'm sorry that I didn't hold (Hold)
Onto you
If you knew
Why I push away my real ones most
You would know that I feel like a ghost (Yeah, yeah)
Always floating
Always knowing
I'm not going
But I'm hoping
That you'll stay here holding
Onto me as I let go
As I let go
Of the pain that's been holding me down
Have I found
Someone I can trust?
I hope it is enough (Yeah)

To love me, hate me
I can't fake me
I can only
Rearrange me
Would you love me
If I showed you
Who I am and all I can do?
What can I do?
I can show you all the times that I fell down
I can show you all the beauty that I found
Underground
Where I belong
Not here writing, fighting, trying
My hardest to become strong
I just need some help to fix it
Or to end it all