Over Now

Look, I'm tired of holding on to this
Feeling I won't get over it
Feeling I won't be whole again
Wanting to hold you close but then
I realize it's all over now
The anxiety I had drowning out
The fear that always hid inside
The back of a suicidal mind
But I'm not done with the burning rage
Wanna get revenge when will I get paid?
Hold on here comes pain again
I'm not okay but let's pretend
That my target's in my sight
Take a breath but then decide
To let it go
But can I let it go?

Well, all I know, oh

I did everything that I could
To always treat you like I should
Because you meant so much to me (Yup)
More than I did to you I think
And I've got reasons why I think that
I'll list them here just let me think back
There were many times when you made me feel like
The way I thought through things couldn't ever be right
Because everything has to be your way
It's no way to grow no way to say
"I wanna know what's on your mind.
It shows me who you are inside."
But still I tried to get to know you (Yeah)
I wish you would've let me through
I could've helped you see that it's okay
But you didn't want it or were scared of what I'd say

Well, all I know, oh
I will grow
Well, all I know, oh
I will grow

And yes there were times when I could've spoke up
But should I have to if you know what's up?
You said you weren't ready to commit
And I told you I'd wait for it
So I gave you three months of my life
Now I see it was wasted time
Because two weeks after we stopped talking
You got yourself a boyfriend and I'm still longing
Even as I write this track
Two months later I'm on my back
Because the love I felt for you was real (Yeah)
Even if you don't care I'll still heal
So don't blame me for you holding back
It's not my fault you felt under attack
That's not who I was and it still is not
But it doesn't really matter what you thought

Well, all I know, oh (All I know)
I will grow
I will be okay, okay (I will be okay)
Well, all I know, oh (All I know, all I know)
I will grow
I will be okay (I will be okay)

Now I'm not saying that I was perfect
I'm just saying I could've been worth it
But instead you played these games
What you hid was plain as day
Even if I did not see it
You know others in my life that did (Yeah)
Maybe that's why you stopped coming over
I should've listened to your friends closer
Some of them thought I was the boyfriend of the month
Little did I know how true that was
Even if you chose not to see me that way
You knew I wanted to be yours one day
But instead I'm left cut out
Partly my fault it's over now
But I know where my faults came from
I believe you cared but couldn't love
Maybe you did at the start
But that doesn't help me fix my heart
I'm taking time to fix myself
Hope you do too, but time will tell

Now, what I know (What I know)
I have grown
And I am okay, okay (I am okay)
Now, what I know (What I know, what I know)
I have grown
And I am okay (Okay)