Dreary View

So a slight break did not do
What I expected
Am I still the same
With all insides neglected?
A minute ago I saw the darkest days
A second later I am back on the highways
I know I value life after what I have seen
So why do I fall back to the same routines?

I am an empty room with dreary walls
You are the empty frame in pitch black halls
I have a bad habit of cutting love to pieces so small
Any fragment appears to become our downfall
I set standards to levels out of my reach
You should be with any other person but me

I've begun drinking bitter drinks this time
On a list of bitter disappointments my name is the first line
I find myself around new people, I've found myself letting go
Of the closest ones in my life that I've ever known
Why did I put first things in last place and never gave a thought
To the offending words that I said at those times we fought?

I am an empty room with dreary walls
You are the empty frame in pitch black halls
I have a bad habit of cutting love to pieces so small
Any fragment appears to become our downfall
I set standards to levels out of my reach
You should be with any other person but me

I'm preaching water though I'm drinking Gin
You are the bottle that I'm sinking in, I'm sinking in
I have the tightest grip on the tiniest twigs
Is there a reason to hold onto it?
I've lost their love now I lose my hope
Overwhelmed and unable to cope

One can tell that I'm
Clearly deaf and blind
By the way I try to block out thoughts out of my mind
By the fact that my
Eyes see more dark scenes than light
One can tell I am blind, one can tell I am blind
Reality looks peaceful with these blinders on
And the chance to make things right is so long gone
There is mud on my windshield and a vacuum inside
I think it's going to crack
I think, from time to time