I Don't Wanna

I don't feel like I am I
Every time I ask myself why, why, why
In my heart it tends to be
I don't feel like I am I
Every time I ask myself why, why, why
I save you in my memory

I don't wanna cry no more, I don't want to feel
I don't wanna ask why no more, I don't want to deal
With the pain inside, I don't wanna confide no more
Swallow my pride stuck inside at war
With what's inside of my mind
And store all that pain deep inside
Kind of feels like a weight that I could never ever ever lift
Gotta realize some problems could never fix
Lately I'm hesitant
Not trying to be better, I'm trapped in a loop
I get happy for a while then my mind goes back to you
Constantly finding new people to explain it all to
Page 100 of Pornhub cuz they just ain't you
If I'm being real, I ain't even trying to heal
Thoughts of Suicide, I get behind the wheel
And somehow, somehow, somehow that relaxes me
Thank you for never, ever, ever coming back to me

I don't feel like I am I
Every time I ask myself why, why, why
In my heart it tends to be
I don't feel like I am I
Every time I ask myself why, why, why
I save you in my memory

Snapchat memories bring back a time when we
Pretended to be happy
I mean we were always fighting
You were my M Bison
Our Native couple was like Attack of the Titans
And I, will never go back to that shit
Always feeling blue with Dr Robotnik
So lately I ain't trusting nobody
Bored with my life looking for a new hobby
As the days grow colder and our sons grow older
I can't keep, carrying this weight on my shoulder
I tried to work it out, bought a house down South
You were chasing a high and wouldn't come down
When you ran away in Vegas I was trapped in that room
I had the boys with me but I was searching for you
Now I get all defensive when they ask about you
Because I'm raising the boys, without you

I don't feel like I am I
Every time I ask myself why, why, why
In my heart it tends to be
I don't feel like I am I
Every time I ask myself why, why, why
I save you in my memory

You know you choose to remember what you choose to remember
And for some reason I only ever remember the good
And forget all the bad like
Whenever I was doing good you always got so mad
I just want to thank you for never coming back
Because my life would really suck if I was stuck with that
Thank you for everything

I don't feel like I am I
Every time I ask myself why, why, why
In my heart it tends to be
I don't feel like I am I
Every time I ask myself why, why, why
I save you in my memory



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