Mental State
Bring it to the real life, I'm sixteen, a real fiend
Bring it to the hard times, overthinking, not sleeping
6:30 In the morning
Gotta check if I'm still mourning
Got a check in the mail cuz I'm working
Gotta check in my heart cuz I'm hurting
I'm a stress case gonna be real with you
I'm in the swings when I'm in the mood
Pain eats me like a plate of food
He talks down to me and hides the truth
Like I'm playing a game that I only lose
He takes all the cards and He hides the rules
Puts me in jail
Says that I failed
Could never even go if I wanted to
It's my turn
I'm unashamed of my mistakes
So I deserve
For all these tears to go away because
I've earned
Forgiveness I don't need no saving grace
I made my own special place
And I'll prove to you I'm not a waste
A Prodigal Son
Laughing away at all of his troubles
Feeling He's done
Done away with all of the struggle
What he don't know
Pain is coming back to bite
It's reaping the soul
Cuz He still has to fight
Holding on tight to the evidence'
Being the thing holding all my adrenaline
Passions the package, way more than a severance
This is my healing my very own medicine
God as the witness, you witnessing elegance
Gaming on life you are not even leveling
Connecting the lies I'm about to be severing
I walk under grace and I can't even measure it
Respect the grind cuz it sharpens me
Open the vault in my heart and see
The core of hope not just a belief
It's everything we need
It's the reason why I breathe
The weight of the cross I carry
Even though I feel so buried
With neglect in the mind
That's scary
Crazy, he never believed in himself
He was shooting his shot and forgot all the shells
Trapped in a spot
Where he's feeling a lot
And he's feeling at fault
And his heart is a loss
Picking his thoughts when he's takin the cross
Thinking 'bout everything he was ever taught
Heart was burning, inside was stirring
Had the whole love but he didn't deserve it
Being disturbed when the pain constricting
Beats the same, but the flow has quickened
Not ashamed to say He's risen
Guard the gates we breaking outta prison
Runnin' to the hills, Imma feel
Imma still, Go back to my old ways
Swallowing pills
In the dark, Imma go dark
Hit the restart, Hear pain call
He thinks He smart
Sits in the back of the class
Like he knows how to act
and he knows all the facts
And puts a knife into my back
Then he laughs
Weapon of choice, He calls it the past
He knows I'm a prodigal
Looking at me like I'm a pot of gold
Oh, here he comes it's time to go
But I take my time, shrink into the crowd
Cuz I know I gotta keep it on a down low
That's my life and now I know
That's my life and now I know
But what do they not know
What they don't know
Is what I can show
Need to be vulnerable
Cuz I'm not for show
What they don't know
Is what I need to show
Need to be vulnerable
Cuz I'm not for show
My divides of selfish lies
That coincide and multiply
inside my mind
I'm saddened by the many times
I've realized I'm not the guy
To give the time to life
So keep the mind and be mindful
Overstep the line cuz I do know
It's not about the fight I see outside
It's the war with pride
When I feel I die on the inside
Bang, there goes my insides
I ask myself why do I try
Questioning why I am even alive
Without His love I'm never gratified
Guess I don't really understand
How my life don't be adding up to all of my plans
Can I take a stand to show who I am
Instead of sitting down only
Cuz I'm not worth 10 grand
Oh man! That's a hot take
Watching my back
Cuz I know I'm not fake
Imma shoot it to ya straight
Don't play no games
I'm a reject made
In this Mental State
Bring it to the hard times, overthinking, not sleeping
6:30 In the morning
Gotta check if I'm still mourning
Got a check in the mail cuz I'm working
Gotta check in my heart cuz I'm hurting
I'm a stress case gonna be real with you
I'm in the swings when I'm in the mood
Pain eats me like a plate of food
He talks down to me and hides the truth
Like I'm playing a game that I only lose
He takes all the cards and He hides the rules
Puts me in jail
Says that I failed
Could never even go if I wanted to
It's my turn
I'm unashamed of my mistakes
So I deserve
For all these tears to go away because
I've earned
Forgiveness I don't need no saving grace
I made my own special place
And I'll prove to you I'm not a waste
A Prodigal Son
Laughing away at all of his troubles
Feeling He's done
Done away with all of the struggle
What he don't know
Pain is coming back to bite
It's reaping the soul
Cuz He still has to fight
Holding on tight to the evidence'
Being the thing holding all my adrenaline
Passions the package, way more than a severance
This is my healing my very own medicine
God as the witness, you witnessing elegance
Gaming on life you are not even leveling
Connecting the lies I'm about to be severing
I walk under grace and I can't even measure it
Respect the grind cuz it sharpens me
Open the vault in my heart and see
The core of hope not just a belief
It's everything we need
It's the reason why I breathe
The weight of the cross I carry
Even though I feel so buried
With neglect in the mind
That's scary
Crazy, he never believed in himself
He was shooting his shot and forgot all the shells
Trapped in a spot
Where he's feeling a lot
And he's feeling at fault
And his heart is a loss
Picking his thoughts when he's takin the cross
Thinking 'bout everything he was ever taught
Heart was burning, inside was stirring
Had the whole love but he didn't deserve it
Being disturbed when the pain constricting
Beats the same, but the flow has quickened
Not ashamed to say He's risen
Guard the gates we breaking outta prison
Runnin' to the hills, Imma feel
Imma still, Go back to my old ways
Swallowing pills
In the dark, Imma go dark
Hit the restart, Hear pain call
He thinks He smart
Sits in the back of the class
Like he knows how to act
and he knows all the facts
And puts a knife into my back
Then he laughs
Weapon of choice, He calls it the past
He knows I'm a prodigal
Looking at me like I'm a pot of gold
Oh, here he comes it's time to go
But I take my time, shrink into the crowd
Cuz I know I gotta keep it on a down low
That's my life and now I know
That's my life and now I know
But what do they not know
What they don't know
Is what I can show
Need to be vulnerable
Cuz I'm not for show
What they don't know
Is what I need to show
Need to be vulnerable
Cuz I'm not for show
My divides of selfish lies
That coincide and multiply
inside my mind
I'm saddened by the many times
I've realized I'm not the guy
To give the time to life
So keep the mind and be mindful
Overstep the line cuz I do know
It's not about the fight I see outside
It's the war with pride
When I feel I die on the inside
Bang, there goes my insides
I ask myself why do I try
Questioning why I am even alive
Without His love I'm never gratified
Guess I don't really understand
How my life don't be adding up to all of my plans
Can I take a stand to show who I am
Instead of sitting down only
Cuz I'm not worth 10 grand
Oh man! That's a hot take
Watching my back
Cuz I know I'm not fake
Imma shoot it to ya straight
Don't play no games
I'm a reject made
In this Mental State
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