Self Reflection

My mind is like a vault filled with "I don't knows"
I tell myself to talk but not be exposed
The liars of the bank are scars I've displaced

Panic button pressed
I feel so depressed
I'm looking for more than just regret

I see it all
I see the fall
I see the ball in my own court
In my own home
I feel alone
But I see the throne

But it's just another lie
Man, I've heard it all along
Just another lie
Man, I've heard it all along

I've seen it many times it hurts so many souls
I pray that this state of mind that it gets up off the floor
So pretty please God
Don't turn me away
My fighting's not done
Man I'm here to stay

Next round
I'll bring it down
On the clown
Alone, you heard me right
See

I know they saying my name
But I don't hear a thing
This is the blood I taste
On the mat of disgrace
On the matter it takes to get me more through this life
One name I'm reppin and his name is Jesus Christ
So

This is my reality
Hope, this doesn't shatter me
Know, that this is festering
Given all the best of me

I'm looking for a memory that's not disturbing
Surface level stuff, that is innerving
Tired of these moments
Tired of these thoughts
Why does this trauma
Leave me so distraught
Lord, seek my heart like it's never been sought

But the agents of chaos
They bringing lies just to break us
This ain't about being famous
This about being nameless

I'm bringing something worth saying
Bringing something worth playing
This is to my Creator
The one who loved and made us
The one who died to save us
The one who's chains He is breaking

Can I speak a little bit
Can I tell you not to quit
Can I say that love exists
Are you tired of this

Walking endlessly through this barren empty hall
Desperately trying to to give em your all
Knowing in the end that It's never gonna matter
To them you're just a parasite
Hope to kill ya faster

Yeah

This is who I am