Hear Me Out

How do i get it going and how do i start a rhyme
When everyday i just feel so empty inside
And the music is the only thing that's keeping me alive
I would say that i'm better but we know that's a lie
I've been lonely ever since i was little, i seen stuff i shouldn't have
And my childhood was never full of skittles
But if you'd look at me now, you'd think i be would happy
I got a pretty good life not tryna be all sappy
But u haven't seen my past all my scars not acne, i just
Keep my head down so they don't look all at me
People call me quiet and i hate it cause it's not me
I don't talk to people cause the pain i feel it might be
All ingrained in me, i guess that's a shame to be
But you haven't understood all the agony i see
I been quiet all my life i was a sad kid
Forced to grow up when i was young i just hid
Away from the trauma stay away from the drama
Tears on my pillow feeling like i'm in a sauna
Some nights it gets so bad feels like i can't go on
Cause nobody understands it till i put it in a song
So listen can u hear me now, a cry for help
Nobody is listening please i need help, just a shoulder to cry on
Give me some wings i can fly on
Make sure they all fit give it to me and i'll try on, but
I keep going like my hearts not hurting
But it's not like anybody cares till its concerning
It's not until ur gone when they recognize ur brain
Sitting in their heads trying to see all the pain
Looking for the signs, they sit and they wonder
But, it's too late cause i'm six feet under
So don't say i never warned u when it comes up
Can God hear me please give me a thumbs up

Speaking of him, where is he now
Head on the ground can he take me out
Of the misery within me
Relief he can bring me
I know i did some wrong but if u could please forgive me
I'm a complicated person u will never know me
I don't even know me sometimes i feel like a phoney
Sad songs, all i write is sad songs
Win a prize for being sad i got bronze
Hope one day i can be an icon
Like jaden but i can't see cause i'm so gone
It's like i say too much without ever saying anything
The thoughts in my head got me like its a deadly stin
I don't have control over them that's the scary thing
One of these days their gonna take me and my everything, and
I hate myself more than u know
Sometimes i look in the mirror and u feel so cold
Cause i put myself through the pain that i'm in
Don't ask me what's wrong i don't where where to begin
Fast forward now i just been how i been
Numbness and pain they act like they are twins
Why am i like this, guess its just built in
I said don't ask me what's wrong i don't know where to begin