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Another day, another reason, 'nother changing of the season
Endless pushing myself forward, everyday feels like the worst day of my life
End now I wish I never even tried

It's so ridiculously boring
Just habitually avoiding
Any complex conversation
Seems the human race is doomed to live a lie
And now I must find how I will survive

Please tell me what I am
I don't feel like a man
I think I've bitten off more than I can chew
I'm scared of dying but I'm scared of living too
I've never really felt like I belonged
I don't feel like people listen, or ever really wanna talk
So now I'm always dreaming of a life that feels like home
Somehow I must make it on my own

I wonder how else I should play
What other moves left I should make
Or is the lesson that I'm learning just to amputate before you cauterize?
It's something that I've learned a thousand times
It's like you warn them not to show up, cause eventually, you blow it
Their response is just outrageous
Cause they knew you were this crazy the whole time
But the adage says two wrongs don't make it right

Please tell me what I am
I don't feel like a man
I think I've bitten off more than I can chew
I'm scared of dying but I'm scared of living too
Walk on alone
Until I've learned my lesson, a thousand and first time shown
It makes things less confusing when I'm the only one I trust
What could be is as frustrating as what was
What could be is as frustrating as what was
What could be is as frustrating as what was