The Edge of September

I'm pinning my hope on the edge of September
And praying the payoff's not too far away
I'm trying to focus and change for the better
Breakdown's cause breakthroughs, I'm reminded each day
I feel dead on arrival. It's a byproduct of all of this pain bottled up
And this pain gets recycled, by my heart's symphony, save the last dance for misery

There must be somewhere else these thoughts could be
Instead of in my head, in my chest, cause they're torturing me
Yeah, I'm sick to death, sick to death
I'm just tryna be happy, yeah, I'm the life of the party

Now I'm telling myself that they can't all be bad days
And someday, I'll look back, when things make more sense
And I'll see myself there, through the tears, and the heartache
And reach out to grab my own heart, with two hands
Cause the smoke is clearing, or maybe the wind has just changed directions
Either way, it's relieving, cause you can't wait forever
But you can't live your life on the run

There must be somewhere else these thoughts could be
Instead of in my head, in my chest, cause they're torturing me
Yeah, I'm sick to death, sick to death
I'm just tryna be happy, yeah, I'm the life of the party

Oh, I tell the truth, but there's no reason, cause everyone's a heathen
No, no one feels better. No, nobody's safe
Cause if you've seen what I've seen
With emotions like tsunamis
You'd change your perspective, before you got buried in pain
And OH! You'd better act fast!
Because, your youth doesn't last, now it's all in the past

So I'm pinning my hope on the edge of September
And praying the payoff's not too far away
I'm trying to focus and change for the better
Breakdown's cause breakthroughs, I'm reminded each day
And so, if nobody hears me
My soul will still echo with the wrinkles in time
In a place where everything's dancing
The day casts the shadow to remind us we're part of the night