I Hoped You'd Die

Pain in my brain I just hope it ends
Raining again let the snow descend
I was sober once baby I'm forreal
I've been home for months I got time to kill
I could open up would like me still
I've been known to trust now I fight to feel
Think we're close enough really I can tell
If I chose to love you provide for real
Barrier I set up as a defense
Scarier when head up in the deep end
Said you never leave really thought that that was decent
That's ok with me this shit changes with the seasons
It was never deep really just needed a reason why
A reason why
Need a reason why
I don't know where this could lead
In the cold air empathy
It goes on and on
I never noticed it and when it's gone it's gone
And I get no revenge
And it gets hard to talk bout what I'm closin' in
And it be hard to stop if we're not open and
Pain in my brain I just hope it ends
And it's raining again let the snow descend
Cold December
Been a snowy winter
I sniff blow when with her
Helps to hold the liquor
Said you're no pretender
What you showed me differs
From what the old me pictured
Now I know won't fix her

I hope you die
I hope you lose yourself somewhere along the way if you survive
I hope you move through hell so we can't talk again
Talk again