I'm So Sorry If I've Forgotten Your Story

I don't know where I'm coming from no more
I'm just searching for a pair of closed doors
All too often on the kitchen floor
Dreading what life's got in store
Confined inside my peace of mind
I'm just terrified that I'm one tick from out of time
I'm one syllable away from my final rhyme
I always Used to contemplate suicide

Still happens from time to time
Despite the fact I'll be alright
Treat myself better than I ever could
Treat myself better than you ever would
Friends of mine have died when I thought I should
So I'll make my life the best like I know they would
Hitting rock bottom is harder than falling in love and then breaking your heart
I'd never turn back and hit that restart, watching myself would fracture my heart
Little boy Davidson dragged through the park, kicking and screaming
That shit leaves me scarred
I can't imagine what I don't remember
I don't remember cause I made it through
You gotta do what you gotta do
So sorry if I forget you

I'm so sorry if
If I I've forgotten your story
I've been erasing the pain
That means my hurt just won't go away
I'm so sorry
If I've forgotten your story
I've been erasing the pain
That means my hurt won't go away

It's not avoidance
It's perseverance
I'm not the only one
Who really feels this
Lately I'm Trapped by anxiety
Pick up a habit I have a variety
Got to go study for test of sobriety
That's just a story I'd keep in a diary
Never quite had one I just had my raps
My poems and my laps
And just like a pencil I'd easily snap.
Peel back the layers of Trauma and hurt
Add a fresh coat of not knowing your worth
Must be a reason our mothers gave birth
Deep down inside I'm the salt of the earth
Let me re word
Let me rewind
Reflect on a tape that's all mangled inside
The cheap piece of plastic
You keep in your attic
Store is shut down, no fees for returns
You think you will change without putting in work
Call me these names cause you think I'm a jerk
When I was a child bet I heard it way worse
You always think you should come first
So tell me again why your story is cursed
No longer will I give the shirt off my back
To anyone that would not do it right back
Thats back to back
And I'm not about that
No silver platter with my back for stabbing
My faded past more like forgotten
I hated them but It's not my problem
If I buried the hatchet
Left it in a coffin
I hoarded emotions
But now they're all rotten
I tried to move on
But I think that I caught on
That some of these things
Are best off forgotten

I'm so sorry if
If I I've forgotten your story
I've been erasing the pain
That means my hurt just won't go away
I'm so sorry
If I've forgotten your story
I've been erasing the pain
That means my hurt won't go away



Credits
Writer(s): Evan Davidson
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