Cookie's lament

There are moments when I wish I couldn't feel
The weight of the world on my shoulders and the pain of life's ordeal
At night, I dream I'm full of strength for a new day
But every next day I find out that my problems are here to stay

People think of me as their shining sunlight
People don't see that inside me, it can be dark as night

Life did not work out for me, at least not the way I planned it to be
I'm always tight, and I loathe to fight for the dreams I hold dear
Gave everything to be part of this society, took nearly all of my energy
Why work so hard on a career when all that's left is worry and fear

I dream of days when I can erase this hopeless mess and just leave
Find myself and find my place and start to receive
The purest love there is and just forget about the past
Raise my own family and create some roots that will last

People might disagree, but the only life that could satisfy me
Is a pretty straight one, where routine would be fun. No more need to flee

I dream of a road to an open house with my love, my kids and friends inside
The entrance can't be that high up above
And I'm always last to reach the door, 'cause just before the finish I slide
But I'm running fast to catch you all in those rooms full of love

There are moments when I wish I couldn't feel
The weight of the world on my shoulders and the pain of life's ordeal