Back Then

Ugh sometimes I wish I was a cloud just floating along
Going where ever the breeze takes me
That's my style I'm just not into putting effort into stuff
The only reason I became a ninja was so that I could do whatever I wanted

It was 1996 on the day of march 3rd
When this pisces was born into this cruel world
But he never knew how dark this life truly was
Until the day he seen shit that made him grow up
He came from a family that lives through the struggle
Trying to get a few bucks stumbling through the rubble
Thankfully we always had a roof over our head
My parents did the best to make sure I sleep okay in a bed
And even though they split split apart through a divorce
It never really bothered me to see them change course
Cus if two people ain't happy then that's okay
To say it was a good run but now we must part ways
All I ever wanted for them was to see them happy
And yes that's the truth even though if it's sappy
But it was the relationships they chose to have after
Weren't the best but at least I got two more brothers
Growing up I was bboy into skating
Video games comic books were my main things
D and d games I fuck with that nerd culture
Cartoons and anime I would scope like a vulture
Martial arts mixed with other crucial arts
I would approach it all as one straight from the start
Slowly lead me into music from the passion in my heart
Learned turntablism and producing hit the dart
Most of my family are strangers or dangers
They either are never are around or fuck you over
Many of many have already been cut off
You think I give a damn ooh boy that's tough luck
I learned to protect the ones who protect me
Blood ain't shit those who look after you are family
Actions speak louder than words I must agree
My morals and my code just won't let shit be

I was fairly intelligent but never would apply myself
I would get lost in a song and write what I felt
I was about 9 years old when I was hospitalized
Living close to death so young will make you realize
So I focused on my soul and my passions
Reaching for a distant world I may never be grasping
But still, yet still no matter the hobbie I kept rapping
This music thing I felt was a warm felt entrapment
Went through many of friends and even changed schools
Sunnyvale santa clara san jose are the places that I grew
And the fact I know nothing is all that I knew
So I learn all these things that will help me stay true
Even if some think that the shit I do makes me a fool
Cus I just tried to be me fuck being cool
Cus the people in my life told me not to worry
They said you're fine the way you are so no need to scurry
I hold them close to my heart and try and make em proud
I always do what I can to try and cheer em up when they're down
I use to draw I use to write books
I use to think like a movie till it had me shook
I was born with a lot of fears I had to overcome
But I kept it to myself and they would overlook
I would just smile and act like I was having fun
But that self suppression robbed me like a crook