Cocoon

Code switching feel like camouflage
Whole life feels like it's a mirage
An illusion
Am I lucid enough to know that this shell can not cover all my flaws?

With this cocoon I've concocted, containing my fragile body
I show I'm stronger than what I appear
My biggest fear is that my fraudulence will peek through this peephole
And pierce me, as peers see
I'm not who I ought to... be
Cause in this state, I'm bout as frail as a feather
That's often weathered by the winds that beat against her
Been tormented by the showers, so I cower
To a space where I feel safe, and empowered
Another layer that surrounds her
The deception of this position I'm in
This cocoon is paper thin, it's bout as thick as my skin
So I blindly retreat kindly to a place they'll never find me
Isolated again, till I feel as strong as I'd like to pretend
I pretend to see the benefits and overlook the detriment
Hiding my disposition in the corners of a smile
Relying on these walls to fortify me
Till I can finally face the world outside me without lying, wow

Code switching feel like camouflage
Whole life feels like it's a mirage
An illusion
Am I lucid enough to know that this shell can not cover all my flaws?
Oh, oh, oh
My flaws, my flaws

This cocoon is supposed to be a catalyst for metamorphosis
Instead, I've found that it's my stagnant part of growth
My cubby of conformity
I constantly succumb to parts of me that never want to go
When confrontation comes to face me, I run from its abrasive embrace
And I find solace in this quiet place
I run away, I feel ashamed, I can't leave out the way I came
And so I stay, but then I stay till there's no space for me to change
It's always
Precedented by the pressures of appearances to say that I'm okay
The purpose of this room is to make me bloom into a butterfly
But how can I justify leaving out of here the same?
Instead, I use my name
Deflect the deeper parts of me, and all throughout my artistry claim I'm a dope emcee who's doing things
Undoubtedly they trust in me, but it's all been a game
I must come clean, this life is hard for me to maintain

Code switching feel like camouflage
Whole life feels like it's a mirage
An illusion
Am I lucid enough to know that this shell can not cover all my flaws?



Credits
Writer(s): Amelia Norbert
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