Ashes

Yeah
I hate the fact that I don't know who I am
Cause when I'm looking in the mirror, I don't know that man
Or maybe it's a boy, honestly, I wouldn't know
Cause nobody's ever shown me what it means to be grown
So I'm sitting here, tryna put together my puzzle
But I don't got a reference for it, so I'm having some trouble
How am I supposed to know how to connect all of the pieces
When all they ever tell me to do is just talk to Jesus?
Should I start at the center or piece together the edge?
Should I separate the colors, all the greens and the reds?
I'm sorry, but this life thing has got me confused
Do I do it for myself, for the art, or for the views?
I could fail for ten years and still check every box
But will I make it that long if no one's hearing my thoughts?
It's not like I need all the accolades and praise
But I just want some people to respect my name
But what do I have to offer that could make that a reality
When I'm the one who's been criticizing and doubting me?
If I can win myself then I can probably make it
As long as I stay honest and I don't try to go fake it
But that's pretty hard to do when you don't like who you are
And you wanna refresh, reset, and restart
So tell me would I rise from the ashes on the ground
If I lit my life up and I burned it all down?

Yeah
I hate the fact that I don't know who I am
Cause I used to want to have the whole world in my hand
But the more than I thinkin' about it, the less I'm sure
If I want to look back and say my life was a blur
Would it be so full, or would it be too fast?
No I wanna slow down and reconsider my path
Cause I been on the same one for the last five years
But in truth, the road ahead isn't all that clear
Cause I used to see a city, but now I'm just in a fog
And I'm wandering and wondering just what went wrong
I used to skip meals so that I could make beats
Now I'm struggling to make a single melody a week
So if I quit it all, what would I do then?
Would I find a new home for my heart and my head?
Would I get to live a life overflowing with peace?
Would I wake up every day with a soul that felt free?
Cause these the gifts that I don't got right now
Yeah my poetry of thought is all blocked right now
And I know I got some habits I should stop right now
But I don't know what's sittin' on the top spot right now, yeah
So many things are battling for my heart
Makes me wanna refresh, reset, and restart
So tell me would I rise from the ashes on the ground
If I lit my life up and I burned it all down?



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Writer(s): Stuart Clark
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