Confession

Hey God, it's me again
Crawling back to You like I've always been
Cuz anytime things are going great
I make a mistake
And I fall back into my ocean
I don't fully understand why it is
I only talk to you when I'm feeling this
Hole in my chest and it's getting big
Keep trying to feed it but there is no end
And so I keep running in circles
And I'm still jumping hurdles
Chasing a life that I know will kill me
But I seem to not really care right now so tell me are we
Destined to always dance around my issues
Or is it time for me to stand up and face them with you
I don't, I don't know if I can do this anymore
I'm almost 23 and I'm on the floor, I'm just searching for
Another reason for me to get up and move on
Waiting for that whistle to blow, but there's no kettle on

And so this is my confession
And I hope I learn my lesson
But there's just way too much room to hold all of my stress in
So maybe it's time
That I get up and I find
That it's better to listen
And maybe accept forgiveness

And so I'm running away, running away
I don't want to look into Your face, so Imma turn away
And hope that I can avoid the fact that You're disappointed
You say that You'll forgive me, but I don't see the point of it
I'm always doing everything that I want
And I don't care if it aligns with anything You taught
Or at least I'll tell myself that I don't really care
But anytime I see my reflection, I just stop and stare

And so this is my confession
And I hope I learn my lesson
But there's just way too much room to hold all of my stress in
So maybe it's time
That I get up and find
That it's better to listen
And know forgiveness
And so this is my confession
And I hope I learn my lesson
But there's just way too much room to hold all of my stress in
So maybe it's time
That I get up and I find
That it's better to listen
And know forgiveness

So tell me what's real, tell me what's next
Tell me there's a reason why I'm going through all of this
Because I'm finding it hard to believe that there's a plan
A plan for me to grow and become a better man
I just wanna sit here and wallow in self pity
But I can't do that anymore not since You moved to my city
And I'd like to find a way out I'm tired of always being kind
I'm always worried that I'm wasting time, yeah
Don't they see? I'll be there for them when they ask me
But that doesn't mean that I'm okay, doesn't mean I'm free
It just means that I care about them more than myself
How can I be a good person from the bottom shelf?
Well, well don't tell me I'd rather never know
Because the moment that I know is the moment I will go
And find the answers that I've been seeking
Outside the prison that I was building
But I'm scared to shut it down
Scared that I will drown

And so I'm running away, running away
I don't want to look into Your face, so Imma turn away
And hope that I can avoid the fact that You're disappointed
You say that You'll forgive me, but I don't see the point of it
I'm always doing everything that I want
I don't care if it aligns with anything You taught
Or at least I'll tell myself that I don't really care
But anytime I see my reflection, I just stop and stare

And so this is my confession
And I hope I learn my lesson
But there's just way too much room to hold all of my stress in

And so this is my confession
And I hope I learn my lesson
But there's just way too much room to hold all of my stress in

And so this is my confession
And I hope I learn my lesson
But there's just way too much room to hold all of my stress in
So maybe it's time
That I get up and I find
That it's better to listen
And maybe accept forgiveness