Lost at Sea

Bear with me a moment

As I go back to a place where I used to be
Optimistic knowing I was carefree
But of course it never seems to last long
Is there a reason why they had to do me so wrong?
I don't know if I can stop dragging my feet
Bring it up just so you might hold me closely
Never mind, I would rather just be lonely
Hopefully, no one listens to that, too closely
Cuz you know it as well as I do
On my own I could never pull through so I'll leave it up to you
To decide if I'm worth the time
Or if I'm just the product of a mind
That doesn't know
Where to go
Holding onto all he's sown
Even though it's not his fault
That everyone has lies they bought
To discover what he's not
A picture perfect son of God
Well maybe if they paid attention
They would know my true intentions

But instead
I'm left for dead
Lost at sea
Cold and weak

Slowly drifting back to shore
Not much there worth fighting for
You say you can help me out
But I'd rather shut it down
Cuz I'm not ready for things to change
I'm not ready for all the ways
You might prove that I'm okay
You might prove I'm on the way
To finally being somebody that I'm proud to be
On the surface, I will always wear a face to hide all of my burdens
In my ocean, you might find me holding all these beautiful serpents
With their poison burning every inch of my bloodstream
But I don't feel it cuz I feel like it's always been a part of me
Honestly I'm tired of running just to find a fleeting peace
Cuz it doesn't matter when it's here one moment gone the next
Guess I'm saying that I'm over it
Yeah, I'm over it

So go ahead
Leave me for dead
Lost at sea
Cold and weak