Kick & Scream

Sometimes I wonder where it is that you could possibly be running to
Never phased by anything that makes you feel uncomfortable
I wish that I could be like you
I wish I was invincible
But it just seems like all I have is doubt clouding up my brain
Not a single drop of confidence that's running through my veins
And I wish that I could change
I just feel so f*cking lame

I swear I can't believe that you and I could be the same person
Some days you seem so driven by the power of your purpose
Meanwhile I just feel so worthless on the days that you don't stick around
You never seem to be in reach whenever you are in town
The best of me is with you, I'm trying to recreate the feeling
Of seeing the world's beauty, through the lens of my youth
But all I'm catching is stress
Because everything is monetary
And it's scary, and I guess that's a reality cheque/check
My body is getting heavy, my wallet is feeling lighter
My favourite pair of jeans, is fitting a little tighter
My bones won't stop cracking, starting to lose passion
Bad habit of napping, how could I let this happen
What happened to that young go-getter
Head in the clouds, always trying to be better
Never backing down, now somehow cannot be found
Tell me where are you now
Tell me where are you now

I just want to be a kid again
This life is overrated
Why does living like a grown up
Have to be so complicated
I don't have the time
To meet your every expectations
I don't want to be mature
In every stressful situation
I just wanna
Kick and scream at the top of my lungs
Kick and scream till my body goes numb
Don't you feel like such an old fool
When you start to miss the old you

Now all I see is everybody kicking wins up on my Insta-feed
While I'm going nowhere, thinking that there's something wrong with me
Honestly, 30 creeping up on me like Metal Gear
My twenties came and went, now I'm just hoping I don't settle here
I've been feeling washed up, maybe I'm too old for this
Trophies have been boxed up, got nothing to show for it
Tried to run a marathon and stopped to take break
Caught up watching other runners and forgot about the race
Man I feel like an idiot, so full of bitterness
Watching myself in the replays
Hearing me say, I would make it there in my own way, at my own pace
So wrong, took too long, I don't know where to begin again
These heavy wings of mine have been re-opened
And now I'm ascending, right up on my second wind
I used to think that all I needed was time
It took a decade just to see that I was missing the drive
And now its tearing me apart, I never know how to act like
Maybe I was Tommy Wiseau back in a past-life
In need of self-help, I'm looking for self-care
The pressure is too much, I'm needing some fresh air
But the world does not care, about your little situation
So the best that you can do reminisce on better days when

I just want to be a kid again
This life is overrated
Why does living like a grown up
Have to be so complicated
I don't have the time
To meet your every expectations
I don't want to be mature
In every stressful situation
I just wanna
Kick and scream at the top of my lungs
Kick and scream till my body goes numb
Don't you feel like such an old fool
When you start to miss the old you
Kick and scream at the top of my lungs
Kick and scream till my body goes numb
Don't you feel like such an old fool
When you start to miss the old you