I Want My Life To Change

I want my life to change
I don't ask for much
But some days I feel like
The trouble ain't worth it
And I should give up
I want my life to change
And it's up to me
I need to put work in
To prove I deserve it
I want to be free

Lately, I've been going through the motions
Feeling like my spirit has been broken
If love begins within, and I don't like the skin I'm in
Then can you tell me how to stop feeling so hopeless
Sick of feeling sorry for myself
I know that this ain't the way that I should be
Honestly I don't know how the ones that love me
Dig down deep enough to have the patience to put up with me
God damn it, I've been feeling a way
About the way that I live
I got, too many goals and too many dreams
I never know how to begin
Where do I start?
I follow my heart but I fall down so often, I wanna go further
But I've been so crushed by the burden of caution
I wanna be fearless and work even harder
But I get so tired and so uninspired, it honestly feels like the end of the road
I lose my fire, and I feel expired, but something inside me just won't let it go
I don't believe in myself anymore and it's hard to climb down from the peak of the pain
I need to stop pointing the finger of blame at myself
Because I'm not okay
I let down my loved ones, and everyone else
And I feel like a failure, so I tell myself

I want my life to change
I don't ask for much
But some days I feel like
The trouble ain't worth it
And I should give up
I want my life to change
And it's up to me
I need to put work in
To prove I deserve it
I want to be free

I'm not as young as I used to be, I'm not ageing too beautifully
Old enough to know better, but I keep acting stupidly
Feels like time has eluded me, 'cause I seem to continue
Living in shadows of accomplishments, I desperately cling to
I've been thinking about the future, and hoping it gets better
And hoping that it's not too late to get my act together
And then I realise that this feeling that I have kept
Is a feeling that I felt last year, and carried into the next
I've been running in circles, but now it is time to progress
Your expectations can hurt you, it's been the source of my stress
But I can't let it phase me, I gotta keep calm and carry on
Gotta Hussle like Nipsey, and keep on running that Marathon
I am not confined to the office desk that I blame
And I am not defined by the bank account in my name
Refuse to be left behind, sitting stagnant in my complaints
And I need to be more proactive if I want my life to change
so I'm here
I said I'm here
I'm through with excuses, at peace with my flaws
And I'm trying to do better, to get what I want because

I want my life to change
I don't ask for much
But some days I feel like
The trouble ain't worth it
And I should give up
I want my life to change
And it's up to me
I need to put work in
To prove I deserve it
I want to be free
I want my life to change
I don't ask for much
But some days I feel like
The trouble ain't worth it
And I should give up
I want my life to change
And it's up to me
I need to put work in
To prove I deserve it
I want to be free
I want my, I want my life to change