Blacked Out

Can I hit restart, been more careful from the start
What was I doing, the hell was I doing? Should've been a little smart
Every move I make, every risk I take
Acting so different not like myself, the fuck, I'm being so fake

Friends took us out, got us all drunk
Can this be over, so I can be sober
You told me to trust her, I didn't even know her

Reckless drinking, what am I doing
In a strange place, I'm overthinking
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, too much over thinking
You gave me drugs, said what the fuck?
Supposed to be fun, but I didn't believe you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
The city sort of changed you

Crowded room, I don't know what to do
Can't speak, can't move, my body feels like glue
Oh, my, my
Eyes red and fucking high
Can't speak, can't move, what's my night come to?

This was the time for a sweet escape
I don't know why I made a mistake
What can I say, what can I say
The words are there but I can't explain

Too much in the atmosphere
Out of my mind, things are so unclear
My body has had enough
Shit I think I blacked out

Yeah, I think I blacked out

I'll never get the hype
Drugs just ain't my vibe
I asked for help, I was scared
All you did was laugh at my pain

I saw your real true side
Now my love for you has died
Why am I here? I should disappear
Thought you were great, now you're my biggest fear

You got me stressing
Now I'm overly obsessing
Should've stayed home and listened to my intuitions

Got me all crossfaded
Now I feel so isolated
The world is spinning
I'm feeling very jaded

Over crowded places, and I feel so fucking anxious
Out in the world with all this madness
Can't speak, can't move, seeing too many changes

Your crowd, your life, is a nightmare in disguise
I'm in the dark, I don't want no part
Memories now that have left me scarred

This was the time for a sweet escape
I don't know why I made a mistake
What can I say, what can I say
The words are there but I can't explain

Too much in the atmosphere
Out of my mind, things are so unclear
My body has had enough
Shit I think I blacked out

Taking shots off the table, acting stupid and unstable
Loud voice up in my face, walk away imma need space
Strange faces all around me, flashing lights and I can't see
I'm done, no more, don't fight, just take me home

As I look back I'd never go back
Felt off balance now I'm back on track
Did things I've never done before
Got me feeling so uncomfortable
Just give me a sense of healing
Still broken, in my bones, lost any sense of feelings

Our time scared you
You hate to admit it
But you know it's true

You abused me verbally
Got me fucked up so quickly

Naive, so damaged
That was the night when everything happened

I changed my views
That night, what you did
And everything about you

Stayed with you 'cause I loved you
What you did made it hard to be with you, yeah