What Are You Afraid Of

What are you afraid of
Your deepest little secrets you never want to bring up
Traumatic memories that plague your attempts at love
Someone hurt you and told you you're never enough

Or maybe you fear yourself and the problems you've started
The people you've hurt, your friends are all acting guarded
You've lashed out before and you've pushed them away
And you don't understand why you keep making these mistakes

Maybe you're afraid of something physical like spiders or snakes
But that's not a true fear, just something other can relate to
You hate you, you look into the mirror and see a fake you
Staring back
Cuz your own reflection is a stranger

Maybe you're scared of your friends and the way that they see you
Cuz nobody wants to deal with all your issues
So you push them deep down where no one will ever see them
I've seen people pull the trigger for that one reason

I speak from experience, I have the scars to prove it
My arms hurt sure, but I meant the ones inside me
The memories I have of watching the people beside me
Turn away when I needed them my own tears are blinding

I'm no god, I'm not a role model I'm just being honest
I never claimed to be perfect, never claimed to be flawless
It's time I faced the fact that I'm hiding from my demons
And maybe show the world what I am really afraid of

I'm scared to move forward
I'm scared to move back
I'm scared while I'm standing
I'll finally start to collapse
I'm scared of my friends
And the way that they see me
I'm scared of my life
And I'm scared for my family
I'm afraid of my love and what might eventually come from it
I'm scared of what I can't see I'm scared of my own feelings
I'm scared of the fact that I don't even know what to do
And I'm afraid that might nightmares might finally come true

Every night I have to take a deep breath
Until I can find a way to get this weight off my chest
I'm afraid what will happen if I tell you the truth
I'm afraid what you'll think about me lying to you

I'm scared to move forward
I'm scared to move back
I'm scared while I'm standing
I'll finally start to collapse
I'm scared of my friends
And the way that they see me
I'm scared of my life
And I'm scared for my family
I'm afraid of my love and what might eventually come from it
I'm scared of what I can't see I'm scared of my own feelings
I'm scared of the fact that I don't even know what to do
And I'm afraid that might nightmares might finally come true

I wanna be transparent
I'm just praying that you're hearing this
I don't want you to leave again
I don't want you to lose a friend
Let's make amends
And start again
Anxiety is deep within
My mind it's tearing us apart
I know that you can feel it
Help me get out of the dark
Hoping you can see my heart
Beyond the words that I speak
Cause my brain is really freaky
Twisting everything I say
To try and push you all away
I'm sorry that I've changed man I'm sorry that I've changed

Sorry that I've changed
Sorry that I've changed

What are you afraid of
Cuz I'm afraid of the dark
Afraid of what I can't see
It's surrounding my heart
Trapping me inside these metal bars that I built
I don't know if it's fear anger or guilt
Maybe all three
Once you finally get to know me
You'll see the real reason why I've got no problem holding
Onto all my issues hiding them from reality
I'm gonna lock my door because nobody's allowed to see

I'm scared to move forward
I'm scared to move back
I'm scared while I'm standing
I'll finally start to collapse
I'm scared of my friends
And the way that they see me
I'm scared of my life
And I'm scared for my family
I'm afraid of my love and what might eventually come from it
I'm scared of what I can't see I'm scared of my own feelings
I'm scared of the fact that I don't even know what to do
And I'm afraid that might nightmares might finally come true