Gone

People say I shouldn't hate myself
But I'm real bad listener I can't help it
Call me selfish
Only thinking bout myself it's
Not my problem what you think
It's a habit gotta kick it
Cut my face with a blade
I didn't shave today
Only did so I could maybe feel something
I know it's unhealthy
But it would help if you could hear me

With this mess of a brain
Swear I'm not O K
I'm a little insane
And I wish it was fake
And I wish that I was lying
And I wish I could be fine
Not that you would ever even care
Should I even try
I think it's easier to die
To give up my own life
To ignore all the facts
To start using this knife

Not as a weapon
A message
Aggression
A blessing
In disguise
Look into my eyes
And I guarantee you will be surprised

If I died today
Would anyone care at all
If I walked away
Would you notice that I'm gone
If I died today

You don't get it
I didn't really expect you to
I'm hoping you will just leave me alone
But don't go
Not until I've finished my venting
It's depressing how someone like me can get attention heavy
And it's
Hard to admit I need help
Just leave me alone I need help
Just go away I need help
I'm sick of myself I need help and I

I can barely keep it together
And every single day I'm just trying to get up
And every single night I'm just trying to be better
And every night I clock in I just get a little closer
It's a weird mixture of feelings
Feeling like I want you to see me
You don't know what it's even like to be me
Until you're in a room full of people and you still feel alone

(I need help)

The only thing keeping me from going under
Is knowing one day I can look at my brother
And say that I've done it and say that I love him
It would break his heart if he saw me give up on this

If I died today
Would anyone care at all
If I walked away
Would you notice that I'm gone
If I died today
Would anyone care at all
If I walked away
Would you notice that I'm gone
Notice that I'm gone

Gone
Gone
Gone
Gone