Transformation

My insecurities are really getting to me now
Stuck with where I'm at don't know how to get down
I really want to know why I feel so low
When I am awake it's like I'll never grow
There are problems that I face that I need to express
These songs that I write that I need to confess
But I'm too afraid to let anybody know
About all the obsessions that led to these notes
When you came into my life it struck a different chord
My heart was changed once but now a double edged sword
Is cutting through my soul to clear my head once more
I once was trapped deep but you opened up the door
So now I am left with all that's around me
The people in my life and what they all think of me
And I gotta be honest it scares me to death
When I think about these people listening to what I said
But there is wolf inside that's howling to get out
A metaphorical creature that challenges my doubt
I recently let it take over thoughts during the night
But now it's growling at me cause it needs to see the light
So hang on for a second as I need to transform
I need to fall asleep to let these thoughts take form
I'll warn you one last time that it is quite a sight
When the thoughts in my head are told from the wolf I am at night

I'm waking, I'm walking
I don't know what I see
I'm changing, I'm growing
But I do not know me
I'm growling, I'm howling
I sense to the extreme
What is this, what am I
It's wondrous, but scary

I see myself as I am in the day
Will I run or will I stay
I'm two different kinds that fight in my brain
Which one is real and which one is fake

You bit me, now I need
To face myself in the night
Body, is failing
I need to change what's inside
Slowly, I'm starting
And beginning to realize
The one, who should win
Is the wolf that howls at night