Pills

Another sleepless attempt to be insomniac
I'm a trapped, miserable, drug fiend with a mean manic that attacks
Seconds away from feeling cardiac
I seemed to desecrate my heart with my feelings 'till it was out of wack
Started with Ziprasidone like I'll just try a dose of that
Hours later, I end up snapping like an maniac
Embarrassing my life 'knowing that it's already full of crap
Looking to overdose but instead I write depressing raps
It's like I need a break from life in order to relax
But Ziprasidone is killing me with side effects
Head twitching like I just snapped on my damn self
Too independent and cocky to understand help
Too much dosage, my body hates my existence
Impatient, waiting for me to die cause it's sick of me tripping
Somebody stop J from taking pills cause he's addicted
Next thing you know, he'll cut his brain out to see if it's twisted

I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills
Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills

Maybe just one more pill, what the heck
It could take away the stress and just maybe I'll get some rest
But depression still picks with me 'till I don't feel nothing left
Hey J, "keep taking pills and come follow me to death"
Or maybe 'if I drink instead, I'll be more sane than insane
But ain't no telling what I'll feel from the pain
With this B-disorder, I'll be the next devil king
To make more people suffer in my brain, filled with swings that would swing on out
Of control when you least expect
Zapras in full effect, It's what I would take next
At nights when I couldn't sleep from doses 'I took at dawn
I'm so full of energy that I set a date with insomnia
I'm so dizzy, I forgot to refill my prescription
I'll get it tomorrow 'if I don't end up feeling drowsy again
I hear my demons screaming at me all at once 'till I sin
Just take another pill J, "It's only quarter to 10"

I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills
Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills

So, as I force another pill down, my body shook up like ahh
Seconds pass and my brain wants to flat out explode
It's no secret that I'm an loner with an lab in my skull
Inventing skills with some lyrics that are sad when I flow
I need some help cause my status is on "FML"
Too much stress from taking pills but I need 'em to heal
But still I feel like a waste with an skeleton face to look at
How sad reality is, It made me look back
To my past that I'm still in, nothing's changed but pills
Stuck in conditions where it's hard to get my brain to chill
Nothing to do but pour my whole entire life down the drain
Feel like a zombie, hypnotized by demons calling my name
Until I'm weak or fall into a deep sleep once again
For them to tell each other that they want to put me to end
That's if they ever have the guts to destroy me for good
For me to wake up next to pills in the devil's neighborhood

I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
I need some pills, pills, pills, pills
Can't live without my pills, pills, pills, pills
Don't trip, just give me pills, pills, pills, pills