Ruin

Tired of fucking being me so yea, I'll put the mask on
You really think you know me? Well bitch that me is long gone
I grew with the time to hate the ones who pour it on
Eventually everyone, gets pushed til their mind's gone
So I put the mask on, until I'm all but gone
And I keep the mask on, til I sing my swansong
And I'll pray the mask is strong, so when i meet the reaper
That my mask stays on, and it can be my keeper

This mask covers scars that I don't wanna see
This mask covers me cus I don't wanna be seen
I don't deserve publicity and I don't deserve fame
I don't know really maybe I just accept the blame
Even when there is none to shoulder, when there's none to bare
I just have this habit of needing to lay my thoughts bare
But I can't share, can't show who has the care
So I put this mask on and I speak to the snare

There's a monster under your bed
Well my monster lives in my head
Like a warden imprisoning
Always aware and listening
There's a monster under your bed
Well my monster lives in my head
Waiting for a moment
To completely ruin me

I can't escape my own mind, I can't just leave it behind
It's with me every waking moment, even in my dreams when I'm blind
To the world and all its misery, yea, mine is always eating me
And there's only so much that I have left, before I am consumed
And people put it there, people like you
People who look down, walk the way the world moves
The screws they twist and bend and snap until the cogs are loose
And the world just keeps on turning while my dark thoughts inner loop

You're the monster under my bed
The monster that lives inside my head
Like a warden imprisoning
Always aware and listening
You're the monster under my bed
You occupy the space inside my head
Waiting for a moment
To completely ruin me

So I put the mask on, until I'm all but gone
And I keep the mask on, til I sing my swansong
And I'll pray the mask is strong, so when i meet the reaper
That my mask stays on, and it can be my keeper