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I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way

I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way

Yo, I'm 31 right now. And I still have all my insecurities
Like: should I invest my time into people when they're just gon' end up throwing dirt on me
Or am I enough, can I succeed if I risk it. I should be sure of me
Instead, I let fear take over and smoke all my weed to calm down my nerves. It seems
That I struggle to take one step forward but jump three back in emergencies
Drinking my whiskey convincing myself I can handle anything thrown at me
When in reality I'm stoop kid. Too scared to go out, to emerge and be
The man that I know that I am and I can, cause my mind rather drown in uncertainties

I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way
You cannot put out my light
That's how its been and it's how it's gon' stay
I don't ever fuss or fight
I just want to smile and play
I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way

I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way
You cannot put out my light
That's how its been and it's how it's gon' stay
I don't ever fuss or fight
I just want to smile and play
I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way

But lately my heart has been hurting and I keep on thinking it's something I'm needing
Cause after all a dope heads has got to run out of drugs before he starts fiending
Well I'm seething
I'm tweaking
Repulsed by the person I'm being
I sit on my ass and I play with my sticks when I could be out "scoring" achievements

Why am I wasting my time
Why do I wanna Run away and hide
Why can I not wrap my head around the fact that there's more to life than just being alive
I, wanna let out out what's inside
How am I gonna fail at it if I don't even try
How am I supposed to commit to this when I can't even keep the commitments with folks I have in my life?

I, guess I got to press on blindly
surmount through the storm just to find me
I know that it's not about the destination but much more the journey behind it
So bring on the growth and the grinding
I know that you notice the shining
I know who I am and I know what I want. And I know it's a matter of time, man

I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way
You cannot put out my light
That's how its been and it's how it's gon' stay
I don't ever fuss or fight
I just want to smile and play
I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way

I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way
You cannot put out my light
That's how its been and it's how it's gon' stay
I don't ever fuss or fight
I just want to smile and play
I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way

The pages of my life keep turning
And it feels like I keep been ripping out and burning
Every single one of my days
I set them ablaze
To be honest I don't think its something that I've been concerned with
But now I'm at my home and I'm working
And by energy is finding its purpose
I got a make shift booth and self engineer
My whole life around me's converging, y'all
So being on that lock down! Yeah
Make my moves, make my moves
Turn my free time into school
Take time to stand in my truth
After a long day of stress
All I wanna do is distress on the booth
Turn off the lights, pump the gain up, and humbly proceed to do what I do. Hey
Understand I am a manifester
I hold myself up like I'm ambidextrous
Can't stress enough my spiritual connection
Thoughts become things, I'm arming mine like weapons

I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way
You cannot put out my light
That's how it's been and it's how it's gon' stay
I don't ever fuss or fight
I just want to smile and play
I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way

I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way
You cannot put out my light
That's how it's been and it's how it's gon' stay
I don't ever fuss or fight
I just want to smile and play
I just wanna live my life
I just wanna love my way