I Don't Feel Alone as I Used To

This is the story that I tell
(This is the story that I tell)
This is the story that I tell
(This is the story that I tell)

And look, I wasn't a coke head, I have friends that are coke heads
I mean, my coke use was probably
It was over a couple years, maybe once every few months
Maybe three times a year, four times a year
But then there was a point over about three weeks or maybe six weeks
I don't know
Where it had escalated and it was just kind of like once a week
And thеn it was like two, three times a week, you know?
I mean I'm pissеd, sometimes I'm like, fuck
I wish I never even got to smoke crack
You know, I don't want to be a crack head but fuck
You know, I'll take a hit or two, just to see, you know
What everybody's talking about
Down at the bus
Down at the Greyhound, you know?
But since then, you know, in this program I've learned like

I don't feel alone as I used to
And I'm learning to have different feelings about myself
Different ways of thinking about myself
I don't feel as alone as I used to

And it's a program of action though, like I have to work
I have to, you know, go to some of these meeting
And I go to the meetings man, and it's so funny that God used
Or my higher power, people say higher power, God, whatever
You know, I believe in God, I believe in God
There's so much out here and like
This business out there they try to like
Make you feel like you, like it's not cool to do that
But I'm not going to feel that way
Because I need that
You know, in the program too that, you know
The AA, it's cool because they
It's not about the drugs and alcohol, man
You know, I never liked drinking
You know, I was never a pot head
I was never, I just started to see like, oh man
If you'd have asked me one day
"Will you go to this great opportunity you have on this radio station
With one of the biggest radio shows in the world
Would you go on that fucked up?"
I would have said, "No way"
And then here I was, doing something, that I wouldn't have done
That's when I realized, like, I wasn't even doing things
That I really wanted to be doing

I don't feel alone as I used to
And I'm learning to have different feelings about myself
Different ways of thinking about myself
I don't feel as alone as I used to

I don't feel as alone as I used to
And I'm learning to have different feelings about myself
Different ways of thinking about myself
'Cause I don't feel as alone as I used to

And now my life has gotten better man
It really has
And sometimes I don't even want to admit that
You know, there's something inside of me sometimes
That wants to make me separate from other people
You know, there's something that wants to make me, alone
Because it's part of the only way that I ever knew how to be