Birds & the Bees (feat. Beats by Con)

Up all night can't get any sleep
Battled it for days, bad thoughts start to creep
And they seep, deep down put my mind on the brink
Wanna jump off the ledge when my mind starts to think
Goes splat when it lands like a bag in the sink
Yet I'm back yet again, put my hand in the ring
Throw my hat in the bag, going back for the king
But I'm attacking myself - I'm an actual fiend
What I lack in my health is some more self esteem
Paint it black, start again, and wipe it all clean
But I'm still kicking, sticking with myself I just can't leave
The real reason, tryna figure out why I can't dream
The fog thickens, blocking out my voice and my loud screams
And, quite embarrassingly, makes me think I need more than I care to believe
Cause it's true - I'm a mess and comparatively
It can't get much worse than not bearing to be
The person that sees themselves staring at me
Thought that I'd be all I want and I need but I fucked up somewhere it's apparent to me
Cause I can't stop doing the comparison thing
Running back in my head all the things that I said and I wish I could back like half of the things
Don't know what to do, what I want, what I need
Lately been getting down on my hands and my knees
Anything to appease the disease thinking geez
I would kill to go back to the birds and the bees
I would kill to go back to the birds and the bees
I would kill to go back to the birds and the

I be paranoid around myself and me
I be hearing noise round myself and me
I be paranoid around myself and me
And I swear that it happens every day of the week

Endless circle turning purple, I'm imagining things
Can't sleep when the last thing on your mind is to breathe
My medulla's got a stutter and I'm begging it, please
This non-verbal fight's internal, self return depressive me
Keep thinking about it, pops up on my face
Nothing's a secret deep down in this place
Wish I could pause it and just hit erase
Or speed it up - go at incredible pace
Cause the self augmentation's amazing, I'm brazen, I keep going back in the face of disgrace
Yea the train's at the station, I'm racing, delayed and an actual fact is the track's been ablaze
An endless oblong loop, there's no wonder why I've stayed
Get like two good days and I'm back and afraid
As I try to figure out what's happened to me I'm reminded that I just keep planting the seed
Let it grow, chop the flow, but it spreads with the breeze
And I know, on my own, planted brains full of trees
Won't stop at the surface gotta go down deep
But the mining is worth it all the currencies
Currently on the top, bout to drop, but it's not like I stop, stir the pot and go "woe is me"
I would kill to go back to the birds and the bees
I would kill to go back to the birds and the bees

I be paranoid around myself and me
I be hearing noise around myself and me
I be paranoid around myself and me
And I swear that it happens every day of the week