Lil Fireside Chat

I can say that this is the realest shit I ever wrote
But that's a lie
I ain't even hit my prime
Base form Gohan
Every cell in my melanated expression
Heavily contributes to my daily self reflection
Judgments off of my complexion
When you look at me do you see pent up aggression
The angry black man trope
Assuming cause I'm black I either use or I sell dope
Resist and you get folded like an envelope
I mean look

Man I'm tired
Every other day
It's another barricade in front of the path to being free
And we just want some change
While we scream fuck the police
Cause the images of seeing niggas lying in the street
Don't mean nothing to the common folk
Cause we done let it slide
But media love displaying black on black crime
Which is another issue of its own
But to have a mother's son who is never coming home
Is fucking with me on a level I ain't think could
But I'm glad cause it should
It shows I'm not complacent
And if you think I ever find comfort with a racist
You're mistaken
Cause I have too much pride to be taken as a joke
Clearly if all lives mattered
Then why are we repeating history like it's a pattern
That we can't escape from
I'm sick of getting belittled like a nigga ain't dumb
I'm just here to say some
Also tired of the Instagram activists
Twitter vocalists
I hold no ill will for the socialists
But there's gotta be an end
We treat the death of a individual as a trend
Until the next like
I remember Trayvon struck a nerve in the world
Just a young teen who wound up dead
I'm not provoking any violence
Though it is surprising how
Zimmerman still don't have a bullet in his head
I digress
I'm a pacifist
Scratch that
I'm an active alchemist
And imma work my magic
That I'm passionate about
I've cried so many tears
I can't even count
I be screaming in my mind without making a sound
Shits infuriating
I'm in a world
Where my skin gets praised or heavily humiliated
My own people trynna tear me down
A demon preaching to the damned
Cut the self righteous bull shit out
Cause I be joking with light skin honey bun soft ass niggas
Rebuttable how they go and turn the light off
Looking like a shadow in the dark ass niggas
I be playing along like jokes are harmless
But the subconscious
Telling me that there's some deeply rooted problems in society
Colorism tendencies
Divide ourselves further
How we fighting against the power
When love to hurt ourselves
Put each other through some hell
As well as the violence in our neighborhoods
There's a reason why they named it Chiraq
And it just feels like no one has a solid plan of attack
To bring peace like the avatar
Bodies down the boulevard
I can't talk from their perception
Cause I was never raised to use a weapon no questions
But people grow up hating others they ain't never met
Cause they live across the block
Or the colors they don't rock
And I don't understand but I know
There's generations of hate
I wish that someday we can articulate our words
Instead of filling caskets
I'm asking that we take the time to understand our past
And that's for everybody
I swear there's so much I think about
Don't let me get to politics
Corruption is in all of it
This cancellation culture
Is the manifestation of all these people thinking
They can go perfecting the structure
I swear
I haven't even touched the tip of my discrepancies
But I hope to open conversations up
Moral of the story
Ain't nobody gonna give a fuck
Until you give a fuck
And make them listen up
And hear the stuff
That makes you mad as fuck
Until you had enough
And then you saddle up
And life's a game
Full of ups and downs
But that don't matter bruh
Get up on the mound and batter up