Indisposed Ways

It's been too long
It's been too long for me to go back home
To what I know
To what I
Too long (Aye)
To what we knew
Things be changing on a daily basis...
To what we knew

When I was young I was a bully
Really matter of fact
It's too ironic
How I grew up just to be an outcast
Which explained my fascination of rap
I'm like Ms. Jackson
Got a question
Can you meet me in the back of the class
My introduction was through Mockingbird
The verses served as a conduit
As the words flowing over my soul
Living in a mad city
Got that K Dot fasho
And don't you get me started on Jermaine Cole
Next thing I know
I was imitating flows of Lil Wayne or Big Sean
Innovating like Drake or Kanye
I moved on
From an ignorant mindset
To really understanding
How rap can change a concept
So I turned it to a Plan B
Difficult to finance
But easier to digest
It would take a couple years to follow in steps
I could write a story but what's the point there's no one to tell
Had to learn before you win you gotta take a couple L's

It's been too long
It's been too long for me to go back home
To what I know
To what I
Too long (Aye)
To what we knew
Things be changing on a daily basis...
To what we knew

Always been a real nigga
Never been a hood nigga
Ain't ashamed to tell you straight up
I can't make music bout
How I used to trap
Or how I came out from the mud
Cause really that is not how I grew up
Like my name was Clarence
My parents have a very good marriage
Been through a couple private schools
But don't think I'm embarrassed
I'm blessed
So everything I say authentic
Meaning that I meant it
So when I speak
I don't talk I just confess
But don't go misconstrue my words
And think I'm soft
Cause the paws on this dog
Is bout as big as the heart
Very large full of love
All above
My choices come in multiple
I thank the lord
For making me feel purposeful
And you can be a warrior
But still stand to be merciful
I'm valiant yet versatile
All my actions surgical
Now and days rappers love to be actors
I'm trynna change
And gravitate like MJ
How I make it personal

It's been too long
It's been too long for me to go back home
To what I know
To what I
Too long (Aye)
To what we knew
Things be changing on a daily basis...
To what we knew

Everybody know Marcus
And some know Fresco
Only the one percent
Know Marcel
That's for the fam
If you confused you don't know I am
And I don't blame you
But don't call me your brother
Like my momma also made you
She could've raised you
Like her own
But I bleed for my blood
And that something you can never ever clone
I got generations of soul
It's never small titles
Power to the rivals
I'm talking false idols
Living through my expectations
Elevating while I'm meditating
Knowing imma give into my inclinations
I feel like a nobody
Even worse nobody got me
Even though God got me
It's too symbolic
Going through the phases
That's the phrase people say
When they life is always in some disarray
I'm in amazement
Engaged in every single moment
As long as there's breath to be taken