In Pursuit

I'm not used to being neglected
Yet I'm anything but vain
I sit alone on a bookcase
But I'm sometimes misplaced
I gaze out at the window
7 years and they've stayed the same
Still, I get the last laugh
Like I do anyways
Welcome to my carousel
Of despondent dreams
And mid-life dropouts
Would you take a seat
But you don't know me
And soon you'll see
My worth somehow

I find it funny, that you don't know how much you'll grow to hate yourself
You're no one's favorite so you feel compelled
To move along and fake all is well
But you met me
And I'll be, your favorite friend
The only thing
That you need to feel good again
When it's too easy
You'll come to meet
The deadliest truths

More years sitting watching
From my new place up on IKEA shelf
Now I'm getting attention
Refund me for your mental health
Teenage boys think about how
They'd rather spend time alone
Standing there at prom night
And some other guy took his girl
Now welcome to my Ferris wheel
Of panic freeze
And disguised self-doubt

I find it funny that you don't know how much you'll regret skipping on friends.
You're no one's favorite so you feel compelled
And excuse yourself, time and time again
But you met me and I'll be your only friend
The only thing you need to feel good again
Good again
When it's too easy
You'll come to me
The deadliest truth

Is there some way I could reschedule my
Time I was supposed to spend with you
Somehow canceling plans and skipping chances
Suddenly I can't refuse
What happened to summer nights and pillow fights
Wouldn't trade that time I spent with you
But that's all teenage me
And suddenly, I'm older and I can't get sleep
Friends fade like neon signs
Sitting wishing I knew then what to do
Man wish I tried more times
To reach out and find
People that I value too
But now everyone's gone
And I'm 49
And still, I'm trailing in pursuit
What happened to summer nights and pillow fights
Wouldn't trade that time I spent with you
But that's all teenage me
And suddenly, I'm older and I can't get sleep
Can't get