Doubt

You actually think you're gonna make it?
And so you do, and then what? You'll never be respected as an artist
Oh please. He's hardly an artist, he doesn't even have a label
And with the numbers he's producing, he needs one

Lately I've just been feeling sad
Like my walls are made of glass, and my tears are made of gas
Like the ground is gonna break beneath my feet and it's all bad, In fact
I'm having trouble sleeping, breathing's easy
When I'm not thinking, when I'm alone I find myself believing
Yeah (You wish upon a shooting star too?)
Loneliness is permanent, I don't remember happiness
My heart it breaks within itself. It's unhealthy. It's hard to think
But at the same time I believe that I'm overcome with grief
(You are) If this is war then I retreat
We live life everyday, I might lose a part of me (You will)
fighting all my demons in the darkest place, in my mind
I'm restrained, I'm contained, in a cell, within my brain
This pain is a burden, I'm over flooded with emotion

Truly words unspoken can only describe what I'm feeling
I get so sad that it's disabling which enables the ability to overthink
And then I wanna sink and runaway into a drinking phase
(Do it) full of distaste
But at least the bitter will put my feels to waste (It will)
And I can get wasted without facing the feelings I'm tracing
That are taking away my vision of life
Which is faking myself out of what I really see (You're so afraid!)
Yeah and suddenly life's so much bigger than me
And I know I can die, aware that I will
Aware that one day i'll be sixty, you feel me?
This shit come quick, so much bigger than this
And the only comfort that I find is with my girl that I'll miss
(She's gonna leave)
Her touch and her kiss is what will lead me to this which will put me to rest
(You're weak) put my life to the test
While I lay there and die I'll be asking myself if I had truly lived?
(I don't think you did) I truly did

I truly wish I did. I truly wish upon a star that pain will stop
And life won't have to be hard I know I'm blessed
I know it deep within my heart
But my feelings overweigh me and I drown in the fire

I get it. This shit is weird for me to talk about, I bet you've figured out
That my depression has been messing with my conscious
And to be honest, this isn't what I like to about
It's just what's natural coming out my mouth
Yeah there's somethings that leave me in a drought
This shit sucks and all that's left is doubt

Well see, I don't wanna say
"And I'm losing hope" because I'm not (Hmph, oh really?)
I'm gaining hope! (Ha!) I'm progressively getting better and better everyday
(I'm sure you are)
Things are changing but it's okay (Are you sure?)
Cause I know I'll be alright (Let's hope so)