Secured Letter

Troubled since I was young they said I'm kind but I'm numb
What've I become yelling out my lungs I can't feel my tongue
They don't see me in the closet when I'm really taking out laundry
I'm so ornery you can't calm me lost my contacts you can't call me
Accuse me wrongly I feel strongly I like truth they say it falsely
If you don't want to lose every battle then please don't involve me
They try to predict what I'ma do next acting like they Wall Street
Am I salty is my music gaudy? they can't judge I'm to cocky
You thought you were clever with a gun like you got leverage
See me die is that pleasure? Is it worth it there's no pressure
6 feet under I can't measure 2 feet down pull the lever
I was just making a gesture if I lose my life you lost your temper
Flip the coin you're in denial it's been awhile try to call my bluff better redial
You're name won't at my funeral but mine will be at your trial why so frightful?
Be more mindful your so spiteful gallons of blood now a pint full
Enemy was just a rival not the rifle went to heaven and met my idol
What a hole we dug ourselves in look at me I've been so selfish
When you finally meet God on judgement day what will you tell Him?
He never prayed so every trap the Devil set up until a felony he fell in
They say God won't forgive a felon but He forgave the ones who killed em
I'm not saying I'm just saying ignore the world and just start praying
Cause we being prayed on treating sins like they're all sprayed on
You think life ain't fair look at the cross that Jesus laid on
Don't forget that Jesus leaves 99 sheep to save one
He helped me overcome a lot you should really take some notes
You don't like the flow the why you rocking in my boat
Sometimes we gotta drown before we can start to grow
They take a line I wrote and put it in their bio as a quote
Hold up ima say it keep my haters devastated
Like this girl I never dated playin' games I never played it
Wants my heart but ima save it she's way to desecrated
Time I gave her was time I wasted I hope it's clearly stated
They twist my words tryna make this good in me seem worse
They all follow earth but I don't like to live by works
Everybody dies and wakes up with the master that they serve
I think it's absurd that I work hard and they like to observe
Wait up look ahead there's your dreams on a death bed
Are you gonna give them meds or just leave em there instead?
You live life one time and your worried about what they said
If you let them control you then I promise it's already dead
They wanna see you fail cause it's all they know how to do
Once they see potential they will try to take it out of you
But they can't control your thoughts don't let theirs empower you
One day they'll have to buy tickets if they to shout at you
Everybody is all talk but your words won't hit me when I'm on top
Leave a comment in the chat box say that I'm just throwing rocks
Tell me I should stop the I'll tell you when the next album drops
You can buy a car you can't afford but you can't buy my skill in shops
I'm not there but I'm next up I'm the captain and you deck scrub
They point out the fact I messed up oh well I guess I'm blessed up
I don't give up when it's gets tough I already broke out of my handcuffs
When they fall down they stay down when I fall down I stand up