how much i hate you

I know I seemed upset when I walked away
The last time you saw me face to face
I know this isn't goodbye we just need some time
You know where to find me when you're ready

Remember the time we went to the beach
I got my shoes wet and I just screamed
I ran into your arms and kissed your lips
When I think about you all the pain just slips

I can't write a song about how much I hate you
Or sing about any of the shit that we went even through
Cuz I still smile when I think of your name
Hoping you'd come back and tell me you feel the same

I know I told you that I would always wait
But since the last time you saw my face
I hope that wasn't goodbye I don't need more time
Please come back I am ready

Remember the night when it was your birthday
The whole time felt like a daydream
We sang in the car with your hand on my thigh
Knowing I would love you for a lifetime

I can't tell my friends about how much I hate you
Because they know that I still love you
I barely cried when you walked away
Hoping deep down you'd come back some day

I still remember the way you smile
And the jeans you wore just that one time
And that night on the phone when we just cried
You showed me in life there was a good guy
But to you was it all pretend
On a Sunday night saying we had to end
I thought you could love me but you weren't happy
I just want to say that I feel the same
And I could hate you and just walk away

I can't call you up and tell you how much I hate you
But I just want to hear your voice saying you love me too
I can't even think about how much I hate you
Because to calm down I still think of you

Maybe I'll see you again someday
In another world where you won't walk away