chess game

Sometimes I wear long sleeves to cover the bad things
That keep me up at night when you took all of my light

I don't bother wearing makeup no more
Because I cry off before I step out the door

I have a lot of fears but death ain't one
I could fall in love if you wanted some fun

I was your waiting game but couldn't you see
That you looked at her instead of me
A pawn in your game you wanted a queen
I am stuck in this chess game

Is there beauty in the grief a bleeding Queen of Hearts
Were we really this failed from the start

I was so happy but couldn't you see
October November the time spent with me

I can fall in love again if you wanted me to
But I don't really think that's fair for you

I was your waiting game but couldn't you see
That you looked at her instead of me
A pawn in your game you wanted a queen
I am stuck in this chess game

I wouldn't call you a cheater but that's what you are
Never loyal to the game or the people you love
I remember when you said your last goodbye
You told me there'd be a place for me in your mind

How come we are strangers when you said we'd be friends
And why do I fall apart while playing pretend
A game of chess is all that we are
A rook a bishop capturing my heart

I was your waiting game but couldn't you see
That you looked at her when you called me baby
I was your waiting game but couldn't you see
Is there beauty in the grief the way you loved me

I was your waiting game but couldn't you see
That you looked at her instead of me
A pawn in your game you wanted a queen
I am stuck in this chess game