Waste

I wake up feeling guilty almost every day
'Cause nothing wakes me better than dismay
And then I nourish the illusion of control
So maybe this time I will get to reach my goal

I get so tired with the things I gotta do
Who put me up to it? What did I do?
Why pushing forward's gotta be a fuckin' chore?
Just let me fuckin' sleep 'cause I can't take it anymore

Why do we strive and simply can't subside
What do we hide that we can't put to light?
Shame guides us and guilt defines us
For we don't tolerate
Waste
Waste
We don't tolerate waste

I won't be a waste
No, I won't be a waste
No, I won't be a waste

Of
(Time) I feel I wasted almost all of it on shit
(Effort) I put into things only just to quit
(Money) never needed it so never learned to earn
(Respect) I feel it waning in the mirror so I turn

With every bad decision I feel like I lose my vision
My sense of self-derision wanes within my sick ambition
My mind entwined rewinds the time back to restart the grind
Until I reach the high that dwells so deep inside

Why do we strive and simply can't subside
What do we hide that we can't put to light?
Shame guides us and guilt defines us
For we don't tolerate
Waste, waste, waste, waste
We don't tolerate waste

A string of rhetorical questions directed te self
This is something!

But back in my mind I'm wasting my time
Again an'again an'again an'again an'again
Whatever I hide I leave it behind
Again an'again an'again an'again an'again

Again an'again an'again an'again an'again again an'again an'again an'again an'again

Why do we strive and simply can't subside
What do we hide that we can't put to light?
Shame, shame guides us and guilt defines us
For we don't tolerate
Waste