All In My Head

Alone in my room
Upside down on my bed
Tugging on my sweater's thread
Hating myself for every word that I've said
Wish that I could say them different

I pull out my diary
It's brown leather with a Sycamore tree
Wipe my tears on my hand
I pull out my red pen
And wrote

It's all in my head
It's all in my head
It's all in my head
Wrote it over and over again
It's all in my head
It's all in my head

Oh oh sometimes I close my eyes
And think about
Pastel sunsets and everything else
That makes me wanna run outside
In the middle of the night
And lay in the street
Under these stars I got these scars
And under them they'll leave

Even if I held the world in my hands
Not sure I could forget
All of the vicious words that they said
That play on a loop in my head
On the pillow crying
Spent my whole goddamn life trying
Sometimes think if I fade
That would be okay

And wrote it's all in my head
it's all in my head
it's all in my head
Wrote it over and over again
It's all in my head
It's all in my head

Oh oh sometimes I close my eyes and think about
Bunk bed conversations and everything else
That makes me wanna run outside
In the middle of the night
And jump in the sea
Just to find that even underwater
I can still breathe

I feel frozen sometimes
Like my ceiling's a sheet of ice on a lake
And nobody sees me underneath their skates
But sometimes

Sometimes I open my eyes
And I put my journal down and I go outside
Sometimes I open my eyes
Sometimes I throw my arms to the sky and spin around
Thinking about all my friends and how life ends
Whether it's all you think about
And I run outside in the middle of the night
And lay in the street
Under these stars I got these scars
But they're not gonna bleed anymore