Admit

I don't know how much of your love's worth the risk
When you praise and condemn me all in the same breath
And there's a story written on our arms
Guess I'll be the one to tell it
'Cause you'll never speak to me again
I spent years cutting the dead strings that bind us
I think I'll lose the last one when I stop drinking so much
And when I was done, I was gonna braid us better ones
Revive the shambling corpse of love
I pray that it's enough

God damn it
Could you just admit that you miss me?
Or at least you miss my forgiveness
And I don't want to talk about it
I got fucked up and I started crying
And I didn't need you to defend me
But it would have been nice if you were even trying

I still remember the night you fell asleep wrapped in my arms
I was singing my favorite Bon Iver song
And you told me you loved me, and all I could say was 'I know'
You didn't deserve that though
Perform social surgery
Remove all the blame from your head
Go on and tell everyone about how I was such a bad friend
I'll never go back to that town, I don't mind if they think I'm a bitch
But you knew you were choosing him
I hope you can live with it

God damn it
Could you just admit that you miss me?
Or at least you miss my forgiveness
And I don't want to talk about it
I got fucked up and I started crying
And I didn't need you to defend me
But it would have been nice if you were even trying

And every day I'm scared I'll get a call
'Cause I'm not there to break your fall
And I don't need you as much as I used to
But that didn't mean I was ready

God damn it
Could you just admit that you miss me?
Or at least you miss my forgiveness
And I don't want to talk about it
I'll get fucked up and then I'll start crying
I think I needed you to protect me
And you couldn't be bothered with trying