Discipline

All these years of searching mercilessly looking for myself
Amongst the darkness that submerges me nervously I dwell
Inside my own a thoughts a walking corpse potential black zombie
Stereotypical monkey nothing special just a young g
Far from average though when it comes to bars and flow
This is me at ten percent na let me not lie
I'm really not trying just unwinding mind
Exercising my subconscious bench pressing rhymes
With chest in an attempt to build muscle in this game
But more importantly for my own self worth
So I chip away every day murdering many mics
Wondering if the grass is really greener on the other side
It's matter of perception and mine is quite toxic highly infectious
I'm trying break the mind set by putting in the effort
It's really that simple I never understood
Why I found it so difficult that's backwards I hate that
Why would I wanna live my life like stray cat
That's lost for those slow fokes I've been there there's no hope
In fact I'm still trying to escape from these tied ropes
There a nuisance I'm the loose end apparently
Reedifying gravity in my warped reality
It's deeper then rap it's literally life or death for me
Honestly bro I'm tired of my mentality
Self negligence nullifying my intelligence
Or lack of it's evident I slack off on the maddest thing
I done should be doing this it ain't hard to tell
I excel on microphones so how can I flop myself
By not chasing this that's ridiculous ain't it
But Low self esteem has me feeling jaded
Questioning if I'll make it Is the hunger there
How do I sustain this feeling right here
Right now freestyling like I've never done before
Effortless like the Nile nature in the raw
When I brain storm I manifest acts of god
You ain't prepared for my reign your really not ready boy

Little monkey nothing special just a young g
Far from average though
It's a matter of perception
How can I flop myself
Is the hunger there how do I sustain
But more importantly for my own self worth so I chip away every day murdering many mics