sometimes

You are so much kinder than I am to my own love
Guess that comes from how I treat the heart inside of me
I love so much more than I have ever known
I hurt so much more than I've known

The days I'd lie to them and betray me
Sell what I believed in to feel some warmth in my skin
When all their eyes denied me
Like my existence was so disgusting
I learned I'd be alone

So it got quite hard to see sometimes
Quite hard to speak sometimes
Oh it's quite hard to breath sometimes

Oh why is it hard to fight sometimes?
Tell me, why is it hard to cry sometimes?
Oh it's so fucking hard to be sometimes

Died so much for your affection
Heart didn't turn to stone
Only put up some walls

Died so much from the reflection
Of withered expectations
Only to kiss more pain

I learned it'd stay the same

So it got quite hard to see sometimes
Quite hard to speak sometimes
Oh it's quite hard to breath sometimes

Oh why is it hard to fight sometimes?
Tell me, why is it hard to cry sometimes?
Oh it's so fucking hard to be sometimes

Though I've grown past some things
I still see how some affect me
Yes, I've grown past some shit
I think I'm gonna be okay

Be okay
I hope I'll be okay

But it's so fucking hard to fight sometimes
Tell me, why is it hard to cry sometimes?
It's so fucking hard to be all the time