Family Matters (Outro) (feat. LyricMUR)

I don't wanna be this way
Especially not with you
We argue like constant too
Believe me there's nothing else I can do
Why are we this way
Something's gotta break
How can it be
A Family Matters

Sometimes I just feel like
My bloodline ain't a good fit in my life
Dark times always here, is it day or night
I never know cause the light never in sight
I get lost cause we never on the right path
We all compete for some love but it never last
We all hurt by each other's stab in the past
We all recover but we all pick at the scab
Nobody told me that the fam would hurt me, only told me trust them
That hurt I get from them is well accustomed
In needing more of a stronger substance
To numb the pain from aunts, uncles, and cousins
And sister, brothers, fathers, and my mother
I remember waking up to hear you fussing
Arguments about the stuff we did
When we didn't know no better, we was kids
I wanna make it up but the more stuff that I do
Will not amount enough for everything that is long due
Apologies and these gifts won't cover
Takes an arm and an leg just get their number
I keep my distance cause their knives tend to cut deep
I don't visit no more, I tell em call me
They don't reach until they want to something
Then they sing they sad song, and they rude when they get nothing
Some are looking for a handout
When I hand out my help, I'm putting food in they damn mouth
The food market bout to run out
And the shoulder that you use to lean on bout to give out
I really don't wanna say it now
But this the bed that you made, so it's best if you lay down
I know what family is all bout,
But the bad outweighs the good, and I don't want it now
Because

I don't wanna be this way
Especially not with you
We argue like constant too
Believe me there's nothing else I can do
Why are we this way
Something's gotta break
Now can it be
A Family Matters

The pieces' there but they feel broken
Peace is there but the war has broken
Up the family, I was hoping
We can fix what we took apart, but our stance is what we chosen
Kind of stubborn when I think about it
When it comes to the faults, yea I won't deny it
Not gonna lie, I'm not the best with issues
But I'm down for the cause, ride or die with you
Only way I lose blood, ima have to bleed out
And I put that on my friends and my fam, no doubt
I would never let you down, when you need me the most
Call me kindred phantom, the way I go ghost
Cause I'm really scared of disappointment, but nowadays I just feel appointed
To be the lightning rod, y'all chosen
To be the glue that holds the fam together
Every time the seasons pass a little piece of me withers
I still try to reach my hand out to people still wanting handouts
Cause they hearing I got clout now
They thinking if I really make it now, I'd be the only one to pull em out
I'd be the main one to look out
I'd go to war for my day ones, more than my real bloods
I keep it ready case I need to bust
I would never let them touch us
Better brace fore ya metal mouth turn into rust
Blood is thicker than water but easily discarded
To play my cards right, I'm sure my deck is guarded
All my friends gone, all dearly departed
Feeling bombarded, knowing that I'm disregarded
I'm not important to the fam, but I do understand
I would give it all if I can
But until then, I'm feeling kinda shattered
I care for you all cause my family matters

I don't wanna be this way
Especially not with you
We argue like constant too
Believe me there's nothing else I can do
Why are we this way
Something's gotta break
Now can it be
A Family Matters