March 14th

Someday I will sit in a room I own
With a woman I love
And a child asleep
And I will cry

If you starve long enough
You will stop feeling hungry

I saw a video of myself
Young and smiling
I cried in the car home alone
I wanted autonomy
I wanted tree roots tied in knots
A willow over watered sitting in a pot

Its a familiar emptiness
And i want to fill it with everything
I've ever used

I'm the only one observing my existence
And I'm still ashamed of how you look at me
This is walking in mud
Shoes caked
Grass greener
I don't dirty my hands building bricks
I'm struggling to stand alone

It's much harder to turn an engine
Without gasoline
I remember my chest feeling full
And each breath a time capsule
I'm sure i'll breathe easy again
But God knows when
Will you hold my hand now?

I want to be loving
I want to be charming
I want to be jovial and funny
I want to be a person worth loving
I want to be all these things
I can not be alone



Credits
Writer(s): Juatin Dunlap
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