New Year's Day

I spent the last year putting myself together
I spent 12 months picking up the broken parts
A lot of damn time
Looking myself in the mirror
And trynna find love for the man I see
And his darkest parts
I spent a whole year trying to forgive myself
For the things I didn't know
and for putting my heart through hell
I spent a whole year learning that
The world just ain't mine to control
And that accepting that means I'll
Finally let shit go

But I know, I know,
I know I'm not there yet
I've still got work to do
But I've grown, I've grown
And I've made my way towards peace
And this beautiful truth

I know
When I wake up on New Year's Day
I'll finally let myself feel okay
And I know
I can't keep fighting against the change
And that's how I'll learn to be okay
Working on it each and every day
Yeah that's how I'll learn to be okay
And I'm starting on New Year's Day

I spent a whole year telling everyone I was fine,
And spent just as much time
Praying somebody would call me out on every lie.
I lost an awful lot of time to playing that victim game,
But now I've gotta make peace with change
And stop searching for somebody to blame

I know, I know,
I know I'm not there yet
I've still got work to do
But I've grown, I've grown
And I've made my way towards peace
And this beautiful truth
I know
When I wake up on New Year's Day
I'll finally let myself feel okay
And I know
I can't keep fighting against the change
And that's how I'll learn to be okay
Working on it each and every day
Yeah that's how I'll learn to be okay
And I'm starting on New Year's Day

New Year's Day
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